How Are You Feeling Right Now?

Sorry mate. I wish I could say something that would help. Just make it through to tomorrow. You said you had some support lined up I think. Hold on, you are valued.

@AvidFan (h) thank you.

Many of us have been or are close to that point with you. Sometimes it helps to know that, is why I mention it. Keep us posted. I hope you're able to call your therapist, if that seems like it might help?

On vacation with the extended family and I feel like I’m an odd person out. I mean I know they like me but they have their significant other with them and I have no one. Always looking for someone to ride with while they have family units. My grandson is here with his parents and has not acknowledged me (I know he has other things to pay attention to-he is only 4 years old) maybe next year I don’t come with them on vacation. But maybe I am just tired but I do feel lonely in the midst of the family.

I feel like crap. My pain is worse today, I went to a study and sitting for an hour and a half makes everything worse. Logically, I should go for a walk, so things don't stiffen up more, my body says no.
Extremely worried about my younger son. They did take him to jail, and won't do anything until he finds someone to bond (like a surety) for him to be approved to stay with. This immediately made my stomach sink. He has no friends. I hated calling his dad, his dad already knew and won't even pitch a tent in their backyard for him. I hate myself. I should have handled this myself. He's mean, he did break things, but he doesn't deserve to be sitting there with no one on his side.

I miss my ex. I'm still pissed at him for what he did to me but I loved him so much.

Better. I am turning a corner or so it appears. My nervous system stayed at rest during my last meeting just now - 5/100 stress. 2 weeks it ago it would have been redlining. My head still feels a bit foggy at times but my nervous system seems to recalibrating. My leg has been pretty well behaved as well. Just need to survive the commute now then a whole 5 or 6 days free of buses.

I hope you are not letting him back into your home.

@Reality

You have no reason to hate yourself. Your son is plenty old enough to take responsibility for his own actions. Maybe if he sits in jail long enough he will begin to learn this. Like Seabird, I hope you do not let him back in your home. He MUST learn to care for himself.

Anxious, had a panic attack a little while ago.

you have a life here. you have family that loves you you have freinds that care about you and you have a lot to live for. you have a lot to be grateful for, the good person that you are and your personality and empathy are but a couple.

you also unfortunately have a fair amount of pain and negative issues to work through. you are a lot stronger than you think you are and will eventually work through most of this negative stuff. will you always have pain and issues ? yes, but hopefully someday it'll be a mild part of you. you have a fairly good life ahead when things get sorted and until you are there we will be by your side.

mike....

you can use my inbox to talk about anything. i will listen and i never judge. i am sincere if you want to talk i'm here

mike....

i hope you don't disappear. you are wanted here and i love talking with you

mike....

what you did is something that would break any parents heart. if he would try to get better and actually show you kindness and respect it would be different but for now he won't do it. please try to stay strong and know that you can't do anything else.

as you have told him you won't be around forever and if he can't learn to stand on his own he has no chance later in life. maybe, just maybe sitting in jail he will learn that he can't treat people the way he treats you. maybe after he gets out he can start to earn trust again and then maybe you can help a little, help if he is willing to get better and treat you with respect.

i know what you are going through because i had to use tough love on one of my kids because i had no choice, it ripped my heart open. now this child is doing great. no matter how he turns out you are doing the right thing as his mom, hopefully when he has no other way he will grow up and turn his life around, if you ever want to talk my inbox is always there for you

your friend

mike....

Thank you!

doing better. my wife finally saw her new doctor, the old one did nothing and my wife wasn't getting better. now that we moved last year i convinced her to change to someone closer. the new doctor is a husband wife team and she saw him. he listened carefully ( the appointment took over an hour ) and he has already done more than her old doctor did in the last 5 to 10 years. so my wife will take a while to get better from all of her health issues but it is a great start that is taking a lot of stress off of me

mike

you're welcome my friend

mike....