How Are You Feeling Right Now?

i use a dexcom 7 to monitor my #s which gives me a real time view so i can be more careful. my doctor lets me adjust my own insulin dose within reason so it helps. most of the time i'm under control but sometimes like others i have issues up and down.

i fought my doctor about using insulin 7 years ago because i didn't realize how serious it really was. my averages were 300s to 400s and too many 500s, now i realize it was very dangerous.

I actually got a few samples of FreeStyle Libre 3 today. Shockingly (tongue-in-cheek), it’s expensive even with insurance, so I’m going to be using the sensors to help control high/low blood-sugar episodes as they come.

Yeah, those averages are hardcore. How did you manage feeling sick all the time?

you can use my inbox to talk about anything. i will listen and i never judge. i am sincere if you want to talk i'm here

mike....

i hope the fly bites heal quickly. i'm sorry that you feel anxious but i know you are definately not inadequate

mike....

At the point where i want to disappear. Not feeling very well.

Unhappy. The thing I'm trying to accomplish right now is all messed up. I have no life here, no life in Australia, and thinking it'd realy be better if I didn't exist anymore.

I feel like crap. My pain is worse today, I went to a study and sitting for an hour and a half makes everything worse. Logically, I should go for a walk, so things don't stiffen up more, my body says no.
Extremely worried about my younger son. They did take him to jail, and won't do anything until he finds someone to bond (like a surety) for him to be approved to stay with. This immediately made my stomach sink. He has no friends. I hated calling his dad, his dad already knew and won't even pitch a tent in their backyard for him. I hate myself. I should have handled this myself. He's mean, he did break things, but he doesn't deserve to be sitting there with no one on his side.

doing better. my wife finally saw her new doctor, the old one did nothing and my wife wasn't getting better. now that we moved last year i convinced her to change to someone closer. the new doctor is a husband wife team and she saw him. he listened carefully ( the appointment took over an hour ) and he has already done more than her old doctor did in the last 5 to 10 years. so my wife will take a while to get better from all of her health issues but it is a great start that is taking a lot of stress off of me

mike

you have a life here. you have family that loves you you have freinds that care about you and you have a lot to live for. you have a lot to be grateful for, the good person that you are and your personality and empathy are but a couple.

you also unfortunately have a fair amount of pain and negative issues to work through. you are a lot stronger than you think you are and will eventually work through most of this negative stuff. will you always have pain and issues ? yes, but hopefully someday it'll be a mild part of you. you have a fairly good life ahead when things get sorted and until you are there we will be by your side.

mike....

I appreciate your words and the feelings they have. The issues would for most people be workable, but there's not much actually left of me. It whatever constituted 'me' got wrecked during the past relationship. Thank you mike. You're very kind to tell me this.

Not doing very well, Im not sure whats the matter, but I'm struggling to eat or drink or have any energy to get out of bed. I think like my body is shutting down because of all the intrusive thoughts and depression im under.

Even though I have felt like an outsider within a group of family I am not looking forward to going home alone tomorrow. I usually get depressed because I go home and then I am alone After a week of being with people. A kind of contradiction I feel lonely now but tomorrow I will be depressed again for being alone. Oh well maybe I can weather the depression better if I accept that it’s going to happen.

Not doing very well, Im not sure whats the matter, but I'm struggling to eat or drink or have any energy to get out of bed. I think like my body is shutting down because of all the intrusive thoughts and depression im under.