We should form a 'hate myself' club.
i hate mistakes i've made
i hate my health/pain issues
i hate a lot of aspects of my life
i love myself.
@seabird and
@SillyOldBear i know both of you have your own issues but unless i'm wrong you hate certain things in your life not yourself, there is a big difference.
i know you a little better
@SillyOldBear so i have an idea. once you reach our age it comes down to someting simple. we look back on our life and can we honestly say we enjoyed parts of life, made a difference to help others , basically was our life a positive one and are we ready to die happy with our life or was it wasted and selfish.
i know i made some serious mistakes, i could have made more money if i didn't marry and have kids so early etc. etc. but i look back and i'm happy with my life and i'm ready to go home because i made a positive difference in my family, friends and even some strangers.
you should be like me, look back at your life and you have shared more with others than i have. you are a good person and deserve to go home and touch the face of god.
unfortuntely we have to wait to go home. and yes because of age we have sickness and pain, it sucks. it is very hard to be positive but we have to squeeze what little joy we can to offset the last remaining years. no barb i i don't think you hate life, you hate suffering while waiting for god to call you home. god will call us home soon enough and the suffering is just a tiny drop in the ocean of eternity. you are stronger than you realize
mike....

