The Recovery Club
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Bookmarking thread - writing more first thing in the morning @Butterfly 
thanks for opening thread with this subject!
thanks for opening thread with this subject!
The most confronting question to me is:
“What have I done in order to recover, what has helped and what has not?”
Many times I felt like I had hit a limit, considering what I have done already:
[Many years of treatment, therapy, medication, exercising, finding acceptance, using coping strategies, looking for fellow sufferers (online), doing a mental health (anxiety) workshop, going to IRL support groups.]
This has contributed to a 5% to 10% change in how I feel, in a positive way. Except for medication: This was the biggest change for me, I couldn’t function at all while experiencing psychosis - medication made it so that I could “breathe” again.
There’s been many times I relapsed into OCD, anxiety and a few times a psychotic episode.
[Escapism (gaming, offline trading card games), finding distractions, enduring pain (from migraines, panic/anxiety) is what I did a lot too.]
A difficult thing in this is that my environment and the people (like family) in it are changing over time too. It can be a painful thing…
Years go by and I can barely touch the core of what I am.
At this time I don’t quite know when I have recovered. I’m not exactly happy. Not that this is my metric to determine how far in the recovery process I am. I don’t feel close to normal, I’m being constantly confronted with the fact that my mental health has gone down.
I have the same symptoms I had in 2009. And yet, this feels even stranger like I am in unknown territory in my life right now.
“What have I done in order to recover, what has helped and what has not?”
Many times I felt like I had hit a limit, considering what I have done already:
[Many years of treatment, therapy, medication, exercising, finding acceptance, using coping strategies, looking for fellow sufferers (online), doing a mental health (anxiety) workshop, going to IRL support groups.]
This has contributed to a 5% to 10% change in how I feel, in a positive way. Except for medication: This was the biggest change for me, I couldn’t function at all while experiencing psychosis - medication made it so that I could “breathe” again.
There’s been many times I relapsed into OCD, anxiety and a few times a psychotic episode.
[Escapism (gaming, offline trading card games), finding distractions, enduring pain (from migraines, panic/anxiety) is what I did a lot too.]
A difficult thing in this is that my environment and the people (like family) in it are changing over time too. It can be a painful thing…
Years go by and I can barely touch the core of what I am.
At this time I don’t quite know when I have recovered. I’m not exactly happy. Not that this is my metric to determine how far in the recovery process I am. I don’t feel close to normal, I’m being constantly confronted with the fact that my mental health has gone down.
I have the same symptoms I had in 2009. And yet, this feels even stranger like I am in unknown territory in my life right now.
I love the idea of this thread @Butterfly
Thank you for sharing @Citizen Insane
I've no idea where I'm at in recovery. I'd like to believe it's possible to live with hope and be on the journey of recovery. To me a sign I'd be doing okayer is if I weren't engaging with suicide. I'm hoping SCM will help.
Books have helped a lot. The body keeps the score taught me a lot. Mindfulness has also really helped me. I've done an MBSR course a few times - there are free ones online and in the UK MIND often has free ones. Mindfulness practice, over the years, has given me the ability to ground myself a bit. Be more present in the world.
Thank you for sharing @Citizen Insane
I've no idea where I'm at in recovery. I'd like to believe it's possible to live with hope and be on the journey of recovery. To me a sign I'd be doing okayer is if I weren't engaging with suicide. I'm hoping SCM will help.
Books have helped a lot. The body keeps the score taught me a lot. Mindfulness has also really helped me. I've done an MBSR course a few times - there are free ones online and in the UK MIND often has free ones. Mindfulness practice, over the years, has given me the ability to ground myself a bit. Be more present in the world.
Going outside, exercising, and choosing carefully what I see on the internet really help me recover. I don't think I'm 100% recovered yet (I don't think I ever will....? I'm gonna try to be positive though), but it's getting so much better. I guess time will also heal but it takes a very, and I mean VERY long time.
I know this is an old thread, but thank you for making it! I hope more people would join.
I know this is an old thread, but thank you for making it! I hope more people would join.