How are you feeling

Sometimes I really don't know. I've been up the whole night thinking and crying, will have to go to work at 6am which gives me one and half hrs to sleep if I end this post. I've lost all my immediate family and so now,it's me and my cats. I love my cats and they are the only reason I'm here. I wished in a sense that I didn't have them because I wouldn't have to stay here. I can join my family. There's no other good reason to stay here and I'm brokenhearted. I miss my family and want to be with them again. Life is lonely.