I feel sad, I want a hug and to get out of here

Hi, I've been very sad lately, ignoring everything around me. I haven't been able to recover. Every day I think about how I improve, but I can't. I'm sad about it, but I've tried to avoid it. I'm going back to school on Monday (I've been on vacation). It was okay, I was in the mood to do something. School exhausts me a lot and depresses me. But my family...

I don't know what's going on, well yes I know, there are problems, sadness, struggles, my family is fighting, my mom, with my uncles, they're not even in person, it's on the phone
I've been listening to your fights, then I felt very very sad, because my mom cried, and now I feel even sadder, because my uncle with whom she was talking said "Your priority now is and should always be, your children"

And that made me think about wanting to die again. I'm so tired; it came to me in the most selfish way possible. I can't stop thinking about it because of the "talk" she had with my uncle, about family, being together, and how much everything hurts my mom because of what's happening. If I died, I would take her baby away from my mom. It sounds cruel, but deep down, all I want (and I don't know if it's twisted) is to disappear once and for all. I shouldn't even try it for myself anymore, because I realized that the anxieties and worries that make me feel sad are nothing compared to what real life has in store for me.

So I want it to stop. I don't care anymore. I feel sad again ☹️☹️

Sending hugs

Can you get an irl hug from your mom?

Hi, I really hope things get better in your life and you start feeling some happiness. Life is cruel and hard all the time and there is otherside to it as well that I wish you feel while you're young.

Wishing and wishes for all good things to you and others.

First, all I can offer is internet hugs, so:

Second I have an intense reaction to what your uncle said to your mom. It was really unhelpful behavior on his part, and I wish that you would not take it on-board as if he knows what the heck he's talking about. Similar with your mom... Even if she asked for help, I'm guessing she did not ask to have her priorities dictated to her!

Source: Personal experience - I am an uncle and I take my responsibility in that role (i.e., provide a safe environment for them to misbehave or just have fun and not get yelled at) very seriously. I would never say something like that to any of my sisters, even though they all have kids. I'm not the one raising them, so it's definitely not my place at any time to place demands on how they parent. Even if I disagree, which I have, frequently, I keep my mouth shut because I am not the one responsible for them, and I don't have a picture of what's happening hour by hour that is even remotely enough to state an opinion.

In fairness, now I am judging his behavior without having any sufficient information about the background, so I'm a jerk, too. Sorry.

where right here for you make sure you talk to a therapist

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. Sending hugs and a hope that you find the beauty in life, even if it can be elusive!

welp they way i see it as you want the 'you who is struggling' the struggle itself to disappear. Before when life family situation poverty was all crashing at once like a tsunami i asked myself would i be happier if the root of my problems disappeared?

the answer i got back from within was this 'yep. il be taking a nap comfortably with no care the world, enjoy life, and live my best life to the fullest' the struggles weighed so so so very much enough that personified into the shape of me to the point where i could not see the light. but once i sae the light i realized there is more to it than the struggles.

* if you are feeling like ignoring everything may be you are getting used to the bad parts to the point where those that bring you happiness feel cumbersome. so may be restart on a small scale something tuat tekes u 5 to 10 mins qnd give u breathing room.

* school belive is such a part of life once u graduate, dont put much emphasis on but enjoy it in a way that makes u happy. its not import forevrr but its memories can shape you.

* the parents thing my god i have this situation with my everytime she talks with my uncle and aunt, her brother and sister. it turns into a argument as a single parent, she got to used to us being a priority that she cant break the mold.


you are uncle shouldn't have said that her kids are her priority, but you being the cuold i would suggest the reassurance of your prioritizing herself coming from you, so she knoe that its okay to prioritize herself. some times you just need to hear it from other for a period of time till it becomes normal

Sir, it's natural. Your suffering seems deep. I'm soo sorry. I wish it will pass and BIGG HUGS to you, friend..you are loved deeply. -Love❤️-Jiaxin
Sir. It's natural. Your suffering seems deep.

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