Practical Advice I need help

I'm going to lose my food stamps again, and I'm scared I won't be able to stop it.
I thought I was exempt from the work requirements, but I was listed as self-employed, not unemployed.
I'm a fucking idiot.
I ruined my own life.

I have no education, no work history, blah, blah, blah.
I'm a big, worthless loser.
No one will hire me except maybe the shittiest jobs around.
And I don't want to work that way.
I don't want to be more crippled than I already am.

I can't handle being self-employed either.
It's too hard.
I barely managed to make money writing shitty articles before COVID happened, but that's gone now.
I was never any good at writing things.
I'm too worthless to create anything of value.
I can't think of any way to support myself.

I'm hungry.
I stopped eating enough food.
I'm going to bed hungry.
Now I'm not going to have enough money for food, so I'll have to starve myself to save money.
I hate life.

I think you need to unpick your list of problems and create an action plan.

Even though i go on about my friend and how impossible everything is, i am able to function pretty well. But that wasnt isnt easy and took a lot of time and effort. Ive struggled and waded through crap all my life.

I was working those shitty jobs no one else wanted to do and built up from there. Needs must sometimes and it might be something thats needs to be done for a short period of time. Im now in a good job, but it took me 20 years to get here.

Time and pressure....

Good luck

I'm sorry this is happening.

There may be a way to unravel this, but it might take some time.

I'm not sure if you've tried calling 211, but they may be worth a try. They specialize in helping with employment, food, healthcare and housing, though also with other things. No guarantees, but maybe they can help.

They may be able to help you find a way to keep your food stamps, or if you lose them, to get other sources of food.

They might also be able to help you find new work.

If 211 can't help, I can try to think of other things, but they're probably the first thing to try.