Venting I feel empty

So... Im feeling empty. I lost my mom 2 months ago and i still mkss her. I tried taking my life 3 times already,always came into a psychatric ward. <mod edit: too graphic> The only thing thats holding me back is that im kinda scared. I dont want to exost anymore but i don't have the power to continue

Hi @Sophie_hnvr2009

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You only lost your mom two months ago? That's no time at all. The grief is still new. Of course you miss her. They say it takes at least a year to begin to get back on an even keel after such a deep and primal loss. Sophie, obviously I didn't know your mom, but speaking as a mom myself, I am sure your mom would not want you to hurt yourself. Is it possible that what's holding you back isn't fear but the feeling that if only the pain could go away, you'd want to live? The pain will never go away completely but you will get used to it, you will learn how to live with it and you'll even be happy again one day. For now, though, you just have to let yourself grieve.

Some things you just have to live through...
Be strong.

That's awful, I'm sorry you lost her.