Venting How do i never spiral

as a transtypal person, my brain dysphoria causes me emotional pain so severe and overwhelming it impacts my day to day functioning.

triggers for brain dysphoria are either not being my ideal self enough (too dramatic, responsive and attentive to external stimuli, unreasonable, long-winded, "normie", materialistic, shallow or attention-seeking) or other people resembling my ideal self more than I do (e.g. dissociation or detachment), which leads to distress and spiralling.

Ultimate ANTP 5w7 God King is described as: thin, male, AuDHD, asexual, gamer, night owl, secretive, apathetic, dreamy, logical, shy, twink, scruffy, semi-rustic, physical media, baggy. clothes, early 2000s, dissociated, slavic, objective, calm in crisis, intellectual, disembodied mind, internally oriented

ideal self traits MORE in other people + ideal self traits LESS in myself = pain
ideal self traits LESS in others + ideal self traits MORE in myself = pleasure

You have a pretty long list of ideal traits. The longer the list, the harder it is to conform to those things. Especially something like ethnicity. How are you supposed to make yourself slavic?

that made me cringe, i never intended i wanted to literally change my ethnicity 😬

Sorry.
What did you mean then?