My reasons now are for hope for my sons, especially the younger. I don't favour one over the other, but the youngers troubles aren't going away. My older got engaged to a beautiful woman, I don't know her well but I love how grateful she is and she's very nice. I'd like to see my grandson. It's up to my younger to start moving his life in the right direction. I asked for their address, he knows where his ex fiancee lives, it's a no go zone to him. I know he's hurting. But I can't fix his life. I say I'm done, that's it, no more help.... then he explains how alone he feels and no wifi, so I paid that today. I do keep reminding him only he can fix his problems. I so wish he'd start on that road instead of sitting there getting more depressed. It's hard, because I've never remembered a time in life when I wasn't dealing with depression at some level, so I can empathize... and not seein ghis own son, it's devastating.... I'm sorry i get typing too much.