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Celebrate your successes!

NoGood

Well-Known Member
#21
Proud of myself

I am proud of myself today. I have been emotional over the last week or so and my mind has been over active to put it nicely.

Anyway, i have a tigger, she is a relative of mine, so its hard to ignore her. She really pushs my buttons but i have to be strong to save face for my family, as my parents and her parents get along very well. Anyway, i have avoided contact with her for so long that i knew i had to break the ice at some point, so i just sent a light hearted txt to her, i got a cold txt back, it was very obvious that see was trying to make me feel bad for not being in contact, as she always has a go at me for that reason.

Anywhooooo, im proud of myself cause i havnt let her replies hit me. :)

She had 3 replies in total and I was respectful in my replies so im proud of me.

Hopefully i can be strong for the rest of the day. :rolleyes:
 

Sidewalk Slam

Well-Known Member
#22
Don't let her bring you down.


Today, I went to the only free clinic in town. I've been once before for birth control so I already knew they were nice. But damn, they're fucking amazing! They're a bunch of old hippies, which makes me feel more at ease. I finally got in to see a doctor and she was such a sweetheart. She actually talked to me and asked me question relating to depression. She didn't make me feel uncomfortable and proscribed me prozac, what I had asked for, because she agreed that I should try it (I told her my family background of alcoholism and mental instability on both sides, having already tried four other anti depressants in my life and the fact that I've researched prozac for a couple of months (which she seemed impressed by)). She also perscribed me trazadone as a sleep aid since I've been on it before and know it works, and since I'm becoming completely immune to diphenhydramine again.

But to top it all off, she suggested I see a counselor and set up a date for me, for free. I didn't even realize they had free counselors there.

And to really top it all of, everybody that works there.. they're ALL patient and kind. They ALL genuinely care about everybody that comes into the clinic. I overheard somebody working there talking to this girl that obviously comes in a lot.. the girl looked to be around 25 or so. The worker was face to face with her saying something along the lines of "Don't you EVER think that you can't get help. Don't you EVER think you can't come to us or make it through this." I found out when I was leaving by overhearing more that they gave her a 100 dollar gift card to a grocery store.

I just know this is the perfect place for me to be getting help at.
 
#23
I made it a year today. At times I didn't think I would or could, but after a couple of therapist, including one that locked himself out of his own office while I was inside, I found one I could trust and talk to. The support of friends and family that didn't understand where I was at finally got me through my darkest days. I know the people that sat with me and listened will never read this, but I still want to say thank you.
 

gakky1

Well-Known Member
#25
Some good stories,:smile: thanks for sharing. Last night was able to actually go this tea house I used to frequent, been well over a year since I had gone there, being around people just hit too much of an unbearable stage. Only said something when I ordered, was not as anxious as I usually am, gave me a little confidence to try it again sometime soon.:bubble:
 

Little_me

Well-Known Member
#26
I haven't cut since October!! 6 months...

I'm doing so much better nowadays, I haven't felt this good since I was 12.

However, I'm very frustrated because I cannot start living life for real now as we have mid-terms. I need to wait for it! :sad:
 

MRGSO

Active Member
#29
I beasted 160lbs in the wieght room at the YMCA yesterday in front of all the "popular kids" that think of me as a weak loser. HAHA WHAT NOW?! xP

just been kinda happy lately in general. Which is strange since I just got out of a super low where I wanted to die more than anything else...w/e though. HAPPY IS GOOD! =D
 
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KittyGirl

Well-Known Member
#30
I did alot of cooking today.
I used to bake and cook all the time- but I've found myself making 'ready-made meals' and crap you throw in the microwave alot lately-- rather than anything from scratch.

I did everything according to what I'd remembered of my own recipes XD which could've turned out quite disastrous-- I probably should've looked up recipes if I were smart, but I decided to wing it.

I made:
Extra-tall Tiramisu w/cinnamon
Chocolate swirl banana bread
white chocolate cupcakes with butter cream frosting
BBQ seasoned baked chicken breasts with mushroom risotto
AND
Bruschetta on french bread. lol


Everything turned out pretty good. I enjoyed making everything-- but couldn't stomach eating very much of it. I've been getting sick no matter what I eat lately.
The point is; I enjoyed the process and felt some level of excitement from having my family eat. I haven't really felt passionate about anything in a long time.
 

Things

Well-Known Member
#31
For the first time in a long, long time, I actually feel good about myself.

I've been hired to work as mod in two different sites (both role playing sites). It's volunteering, but I still like the chance to be responsible. The second one's hiring me as a site artist too. I never thought I was good enough to be a site artist. Not even on my best days.

I've also made some drawings I'm proud of...starting writing poetry again.

I feel like I'm going to be ok. :)
 

Winslow

My Toughest Problem Has Been Solved.
SF Supporter
#32
Actually, it's not that I've reached success yet. But at least I'm not a failure either. In other words, I still continue working toward my goal. As long as I keep trying, I'm not a failure. Whenever I think of giving up, I realize that if I give up, I might be just one step away from success. So I have to keep persevering.
 
#33
Well, I feel really exhausted right now, and my bones feel like collapsing. However, my class did just finish our dance for the school's Dance Production, and we just need to polish it so it would be at full performance level for when the day we have to present has come. It's a surprise at how last month we were only starting out and feeling both nervous and excited, and now we're almost completely done with it. It just shows that we could accomplish a lot of things if we try hard enough. It's worth all the bone-breaking exhaustion.
 
#34
On Sunday 20th May 2007, my father came to my university hall and dragged me kicking and screaming out of suicide.

I am now at the stage where I've been living away from home for a year, can now (mostly) cook, clean and generally look after myself.

I can get up when work comes around - although I don't look for permanent stuff as often as I should.

I sing in 2 choirs.

I work in hospital radio.

I work as a trainer for a national wheelchair charity working with young people.

I have a small but great group of friends, and a large and wide-ranging group of acquaintances.

I feel able to talk openly and honestly about mental health.

I have self-worth and (mostly) a positive outlook.

And now I feel able to walk into my local Samaritans branch and ask about volunteering with them.

It is never too late to change. Life has a funny way of turning round for the better.
 

Kaish

Well-Known Member
#35
Today I actually feel like I can beat depression. I actually found some joy from listening to music. That's something that use to be a huge source of my happiness, but it's been so long since I've enjoyed it. So to find some joy from it, that's a start.

I'm also starting to get excited about the vacation I'm taking in a couple weeks. That's a huge step for me because for the past few months it has been a main source of stress. Today it clicked...I'm going to Paris! (Las Vegas that is). It's going to be my first solo vacation and right now I'm thinking of what a great step this is for me. I hope the feeling lasts.
 
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#36
It feels so good to prove about 90% of my social and family circles WRONG. I love how so many people said I'm "bipolar" and I'm not! HAHAHAHAH!!! i proved to my parents that something is actually wrong with me. It is the most satisfying feeling to know that I was RIGHT all along. XD
 

Flying Fox

Upside-down Hugger
SF Supporter
#37
A success of sorts; opened up to parents and a friend that I have been feeling down. Also I am taking prozac instead of lexapro now.
 
#38
The Universal Law of Compensation

Dear Friends - I wonder whether the following could be of interest to some of you:

THE UNIVERSAL LAWS OF BALANCE AND COMPENSATION

In the Universal Life Force all energies and aspects are perfectly balanced and the whole of Creation bears witness to and reflects this. The Universal law of Karma, with its subdivisions of the laws of balance and compensation, ensures that anything in God’s Creation that becomes unbalanced has to be put right again at some point. The Universal laws see to it that when we have been going through difficult times, patiently enduring whatever was necessary to restore the required balance in us and our lives, some kind of compensation and reward eventually comes our way.

During the times when our soul seems to be walking through a great deal of darkness, it is our birthright to call for Divine help to show us how to transmute all darkness within ourselves and our world into light, the light and wisdom of experience. God and the Angels can and will help us, though only when we call, to change even the greatest evil into Highest good for all life and, therefore, also for us. God is waiting to help us and our world to transmute all sorrow, pain and suffering into joy and happiness.

We do well never to forget that in God all things are possible and that – if we but ask and trust:

• All crooked corners can be made straight;
• Out of apparent evil there can eventually come much good;
• And all conditions can be healed.

The Universal laws of balance and compensation ensure that everything always turns out well in the end, no matter how dire things sometimes may look, on the surface of things. And that is also why from the evils of our common and individual Karma of all lifetimes, vast amounts of good are bound to come to us and or planet. Yet, they can only be brought about with the help and the will of God, never by humankind alone. ‘The Father/Mother doeth all the work’, as pointed out in the legend of the Master Jesus. Let’s add to this: ‘And all of Creation rejoices and lets It, while I do my best to help the miracle of the healing of our world and everything that is in it, to the best of my ability.’

Naturally these laws apply when catastrophes have to be coped with or when particularly difficult problems arise in our lives, but never forget that our God is merciful as well as utterly just. The laws are undoubtedly at work when loved ones are tragically snatched from us through accidents or when someone is enduring particularly severe afflictions. It needs bearing in mind that we can only ever see one side of the picture, because we do not know anyone’s Karma and what kind of lessons a person has come to learn during their present lifetime. But, there is also a law of compensation that rewards all souls for any suffering they have had to endure on the Earth plane.

In our present state, it is impossible to fully appreciate the extent of God’s love that accompanies and aids every soul who is forced through life’s circumstances – because these are the lessons we ourselves have chosen – to go through the very depths of the shadows. Only by wading through these experiences can any soul get to know the great and unconditional love of our Divine Father/Mother. As revealed to us through the parable of the Master who goes in search of every one of his lost sheep, irrelevant of whether we believe in these things or not, none of us will ever be lost. The Master in charge of us eventually takes us on his shoulders and carries us safely home into the world of spirit. No soul is ever left on its own on the Earth plane, especially not in times of suffering and distress. That is when God and the Angels draw particularly close to us, because on the highest levels of life every soul is always loved and cared for, as well as being compensated for its suffering, in the end.

From ‘Healers and Healing’

With love and light,
Aquarius

:hug:
 

Megz

Active Member
#39
:yay:

I feel good tonight - I have done some housework, and also walked the dogs over to check my horse - and then ridden him! This is a bit of a big deal as I love walking with the dogs and riding but haven't had enjoyment from either recently, but today I have. I have used every excuse under the sun to not go out in recent weeks but tonight when I got in I realised that I enjoyed it. I know that exercise works for me and usually lifts my mood but sometimes it's too hard to make myself do it and that gets into a cycle - and then the weight goes on and I feel worse. Yet today I did it, and I do feel better.:moonwalk:
 

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