Suicidal Thoughts - Are you Feeling Suicidal Today?
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Re: Are you feeling suicidal today?
Stress from exams, they all have really high expectations and I can't do it... my relationship, he's going to leave... found out something about a close friend recently that broke my heart knowing it was my fault... money worries, my dad's spending double what he's earning and my mum won't get a job...
It's just too much effort. There's going to be no one and nothing left. :sad: So why bother trying? It's a lot of effort just to wake up and go into college twice a week... and the teacher lectures me all the time. It's degrading. Everyone's always telling me what I'm doing wrong... but I've come so far from last year when I couldn't even step out of the front door... why am I the only one proud of that ? :cry: I'm never going to be good enough for anything or anyone, but I'm trying so hard...
Stress from exams, they all have really high expectations and I can't do it... my relationship, he's going to leave... found out something about a close friend recently that broke my heart knowing it was my fault... money worries, my dad's spending double what he's earning and my mum won't get a job...
It's just too much effort. There's going to be no one and nothing left. :sad: So why bother trying? It's a lot of effort just to wake up and go into college twice a week... and the teacher lectures me all the time. It's degrading. Everyone's always telling me what I'm doing wrong... but I've come so far from last year when I couldn't even step out of the front door... why am I the only one proud of that ? :cry: I'm never going to be good enough for anything or anyone, but I'm trying so hard...
Re: Are you feeling suicidal today?
People can be real jerks at times Mel! You're proud of yourself and should be too ,just because they don't recognise all the effort you've put in,it doesn't mean it didn't exist. As long as you feel good enough by your own standards thats all that matters.
As for your relationship..why is he going to leave? :sad:
People can be real jerks at times Mel! You're proud of yourself and should be too ,just because they don't recognise all the effort you've put in,it doesn't mean it didn't exist. As long as you feel good enough by your own standards thats all that matters.
As for your relationship..why is he going to leave? :sad:
Re: Are you feeling suicidal today?
I wish I was feeling suicidal, I am feeling angry, angry at the people who ended my life
I am jealous of all you people who are just suicidal and dont really want to harm other people and dont have that anger in your heart of the people who destroyed your life
I wish I was suicidal, I wish I could just take responsibilty for what I have done but my heart doesnt buy it
I wish I was feeling suicidal, I am feeling angry, angry at the people who ended my life
I am jealous of all you people who are just suicidal and dont really want to harm other people and dont have that anger in your heart of the people who destroyed your life
I wish I was suicidal, I wish I could just take responsibilty for what I have done but my heart doesnt buy it
Re: Are you feeling suicidal today?
I'm just simply never going to be enough for anyone. There is no value to me... I have messed everything up. My education, my relationships, my friendships, I don't know who could want me... He knows I will probably turn out to be an alcoholic like my mother, drinking to block the past out, I've already tried it many times before. He has been acting strange recently... I think he's realizing it's not worth it :cry: I don't blame him.
I'm just simply never going to be enough for anyone. There is no value to me... I have messed everything up. My education, my relationships, my friendships, I don't know who could want me... He knows I will probably turn out to be an alcoholic like my mother, drinking to block the past out, I've already tried it many times before. He has been acting strange recently... I think he's realizing it's not worth it :cry: I don't blame him.
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I feel suicidal everyday, but I'm not volatile, and I can manage until my ordained time when all I need to do is done. :biggrin:
How are you feeling yourself, daisychain?
I really think it's great how supportive you are on these forums. I wouldn't have a quarter of the energy/will to do what you do, and put in effort everywhere, despite how terrible you feel.
:hug: :weee:
I feel suicidal everyday, but I'm not volatile, and I can manage until my ordained time when all I need to do is done. :biggrin:
How are you feeling yourself, daisychain?
I really think it's great how supportive you are on these forums. I wouldn't have a quarter of the energy/will to do what you do, and put in effort everywhere, despite how terrible you feel.
:hug: :weee:
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Don't worry about it. :tongue: I have accepted it. :cat:
Being sick sucks... My immune system is horrible, so I'm always sick as well. You just don't realize how important your health is, and how WELL you feel in comparison to how you feel when you are ill. X_X
It certainly doesn't help to feel bad physically when you already feel bad mentally...
The two are connected; an illness of the mind can lead to physical manifestations, and makes your immune system crappier...
Don't worry about it. :tongue: I have accepted it. :cat:
Being sick sucks... My immune system is horrible, so I'm always sick as well. You just don't realize how important your health is, and how WELL you feel in comparison to how you feel when you are ill. X_X
It certainly doesn't help to feel bad physically when you already feel bad mentally...
The two are connected; an illness of the mind can lead to physical manifestations, and makes your immune system crappier...
Re: Are you feeling suicidal today?
i don't know
i have no idea what so ever :blub:
i promised myself i wouldn't do it if i was emotional or because of one specific problem
i always said i would do it when i was rational and because of everything together
but right now i just can't do it
i'm too drunk to have a shower or have hot chocolate or take anything to sleep
i just have to wait it out again or do something about it
i'm sorry
ugh i'm wasting forum spaxe
i don't know
i have no idea what so ever :blub:
i promised myself i wouldn't do it if i was emotional or because of one specific problem
i always said i would do it when i was rational and because of everything together
but right now i just can't do it
i'm too drunk to have a shower or have hot chocolate or take anything to sleep
i just have to wait it out again or do something about it
i'm sorry
ugh i'm wasting forum spaxe