How are you today 1-10?
- Thread starter Walker
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Sunday = 1
Monday = 3
Tuesday = 8-9
I'm a fucking mess. Sorry. I'm checking into a hotel tomorrow for 5 nights otherwise I'm going to seriously do something I'll regret. I'm struggling with physical health problems which isn't new - I can handle that.
It's the external shit that I can't control that's pushed me too far. Excessive noise that hasn't allow me any sleep for the past 10 days and nights. Made an official complaint to get answers regarding the noise which took *8* days for a response and then it was just a f*cking email that didn't even address the f*cking issue! Made a complaint about that! Waiting for the ombudsman to get back to me now - that could take weeks - and the f*cking noise will STILL continue day & night.
I'm putting in applications for a new house asap but I need to speak to my real estate agent and she will NOT call me back! Won't respond to text messages. She NEVER returns my calls... so incompetent.
Incompetence all around from so many people and all it does is leave me with indefinite excessive noise 24/7. I'm about to lose my shit. Gotta get out of this house asap so checking into a hotel tomorrow for 5 days and nights to have some damn peace and quiet. I need sleep. It's going to cost me $950 but my sanity is more important. Lucky I've got savings. No one to talk to IRL. All alone.
Fuck it all. Just fuck it...
Monday = 3
Tuesday = 8-9
I'm a fucking mess. Sorry. I'm checking into a hotel tomorrow for 5 nights otherwise I'm going to seriously do something I'll regret. I'm struggling with physical health problems which isn't new - I can handle that.
It's the external shit that I can't control that's pushed me too far. Excessive noise that hasn't allow me any sleep for the past 10 days and nights. Made an official complaint to get answers regarding the noise which took *8* days for a response and then it was just a f*cking email that didn't even address the f*cking issue! Made a complaint about that! Waiting for the ombudsman to get back to me now - that could take weeks - and the f*cking noise will STILL continue day & night.
I'm putting in applications for a new house asap but I need to speak to my real estate agent and she will NOT call me back! Won't respond to text messages. She NEVER returns my calls... so incompetent.
Incompetence all around from so many people and all it does is leave me with indefinite excessive noise 24/7. I'm about to lose my shit. Gotta get out of this house asap so checking into a hotel tomorrow for 5 days and nights to have some damn peace and quiet. I need sleep. It's going to cost me $950 but my sanity is more important. Lucky I've got savings. No one to talk to IRL. All alone.
Fuck it all. Just fuck it...
I was actually worried on Sunday night when my mood was beyond amazing. I was worried it was a manic high. Clearly it was because after a high comes a devastating fall. It's been building up over months though... screw bipolar. I hate blaming my 'illness' but sometimes it takes control no matter how hard I try to avoid it.
You're not alone. You're never alone. We are here, we hear you, we care about you. I am so sorry, lack of sleep is enough to drive anyone over the edge. I hate noise - it is so stressful - I think people under estimate how much stress that can cause. I am sorry that it is costing you so much money but I am really glad you have the resource to do that with.
Thanks Lu. I know I'm not alone here and that means more than anyone can imagine. It's tough when the emotions take over but I'm very lucky and grateful that I can access funds to give me a much needed break. Noise pollution is a very real health issue and I don't think that people in the "real world" take it seriously enough. Thanks again 
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