Shame I can't edit. This is actually really real to me at the moment. She's definitely a reason for me not to do anything stupid and to try to get to another side. I don't want her to go through the pain of losing a sister. I don't want to pass my struggles onto her. I don't actually think it would be selfish of me were I to because obviously I come first. Just that, I don't want her to hurt in that way. Or blame herself. Etc...