Express how you're feeling (With only 1 song).

I miss you so damn much dad. I wish you were still here every day. I love you so much, I hope you know that. 😥💙💙💙💙

"...Sometimes I just wanna quit
Tell my life I'm done with it
When it feels too painful
Sometimes I just wanna say
I love myself but not today
When it feels too painful
I smash my broken heart of gold
I smash my broken heart of gold
I smash my broken heart of gold
Feels like I'm dying
Feels like I'm lying to myself
I know that I'm trying
But it feels like I'm in hell, I'm in hell..."

In light (or more darkness), following the attack troompa loompa made on Iran, the future feels even more horrifying and uncertain than when he first went into office.

This song will forever be relevant.

"...another head hangs lowly
Child is slowly taken
And the violence, causes silence
Who are we mistaken
But you see, it's not me
It's not my family
In your head, in your head, they are fighting
With their tanks, and their bombs
And their bombs, and their drones
In your head, in your head they are crying
What's in your head, in your head
Zombie, zombie, zombie-ie-ie
What's in your head, in your head
Zombie, zombie, zombie-ie-ie
Another mother's breaking
Heart is taking over
When the violence causes silence
We must be mistaken
It's the same old theme
In two thousand eighteen
In your head, in your head, they're still fighting
With their tanks, and their bombs
And their guns, and their drones
In your head, in your head, they are dying
What's in your head, in your head
Zombie, zombie, zombie-ie-ie
What's in your head, in your head
Zombie, zombie, zombie-ie-ie.."

I'm not this person any more. Well, ok, still partly, but i'm becoming less this person every day.

Just frustrated with paperwork for various things and reminded me of this:

“darkness comes in waves
tell me, why invite it to stay?”

only because my friend years ago let me know about this song. Once he simply replied to my endless talking in a gmail with this song title. It's actually written about his guy who had a brain tumor at the time. I'm wanting my lump to be nothing. His was throat cancer.

I like this a lot. Just checked it out on youtube and Dance with night wind is also really good. Has a DJ Shadow vide to it.

Sometimes I punch myself as hard as I can
Yelling “nobody cares!”
Hoping someone will tell me
How wrong I am.