It's valid to struggle through these hard topics
All I can do is offer my perspective
Suffering is crucial when it comes to the cross
It's interresting that Christianity in the west is declining, but increasing in poorer countries
Yet faith increased in the west again during Covid
People are much more likely to turn to God during suffering
And people who find Christ in adulthood in the west is usually people who went through a lot of suffering
I know that from myself
People in pain can relate to a suffering God
A God who went through more suffering than we all will combined
See first 2 minutes of this video
But not only that
All the worlds sin, pain and suffering was poured onto him on the Cross
Then ofc there's the issue of free will
Free will requires us to be free
Free to love or free to hate
You cannot have love if it's not free
If we weren't free to choose, we would be robots
Imaging you were dating a woman
After 6 months your dad tells you that he's been paying her to date you
How would you feel?
Love has to be a free decision
Most suffering on this earth is caused by our free will