I watched my mom die

I'm sorry to hear that you are struggling deeply with the loss of your mom. It is devastating to watch your parent take their last breath and experience suffering prior to that happening.

I did the same with my mother who died from cancer in a hospital bed and my father at home in his bed a few years later as I cared for him for many months with his cancer.

I am a breast cancer survivor myself of 23 years now and feel fortunate to be alive at 68.

And I'm an RN that has assisted many while working in people's homes for several years as a hospice nurse.

But watching a parent leave is a completely different experience. They are your parents.

It is an incredible gift you gave being at your mother's bedside. The grieving and sinking in takes awhile especially when you had such a close relationship with her. Thank you for sharing about it.

I'm sorry about my comment I honestly didnt want to say what happened when SCUK2009 asked me what my siblings did cos it's not a nice story. Pls forgive me I know you probably dont think anythings wrong with the story but I feel there is no idea why but I do..

Just stopping by to send my good wishes again.

I hope you are feeling a little better, or will soon.

I totally understand how you're feeling. I was so emotionally shocked & devastated by my father's death that to this day I can't remember the exact date & year of his sudden passing.Was it December 3rd or 4th, 1993 or 1994? I remember my mom's death but not my dad's. I also remember being in such intense emotional pain that I wound up in the emergency room with what I thought was a heart attack. After a thorough physical workup including heart monitoring & blood work, I was cleared of any heart issues. I was experiencing severe grief. Please take great care of yourself & be very gentle with yourself. Know that you're not alone & that people here care about you.