Memories of Those Lost but Still Loved

Oh @Sunspots I am so sorry to read this...what a sweetie! Sending you s.

So sorry...and it is so hard when it's unexpected...sending s.

Thank you so much

Thanks, still miss him like crazy x

Sorry to hear such sad news. Hope you and his friends and family find the strength and comfort you need

I'm just seeing this. What a dear sweetie. It's so painful, never ever gets easier, even when we know it is for the best. I'm now 9 months past both mine leaving within a few weeks of each other. I hope you are doing ok and at peace with the empty spot I know is still there

I was wondering what happened to your two pups. I know you had been struggling with the issue of letting them go for some time. I am sure you gave them the best life possible.

Thank you Barb.

Tomorrow is the anniversary of burying my mother 20 years ago. I can’t believe it’s been that long. I’ll be ok, it’s an old pain that just twinges now around the anniversary date

Thank you J

My big little brother. If he was alive, he'd be willing and able to help with good words and hugs.

My favorite thing, my absolute favorite, was this look that Jessica got on her face sometimes.

It was exhausted and exasperated and said “Oh my god, why am I with him?”

It was also super cute and I made it my life‘s mission to make her make it as often as possible.

One day she was late for work. It was already past the time she was supposed to start. She was freaking out and rushing around the house.

I waited until she was literally reaching for the doorknob, finally ready to leave. I said “hey babe”

”what?” very impatiently.

”one second”

And we wait until she asks again, even more impatiently

”What?“

”One second.”

I look at her

She looks at me

I fart

”okay, you can go.”

Another time: it was near the end of some passionate couple time (and I was good, if I say so myself).

I was kissing her and cradling her head. I looked deeply into her eyes, the eyes of the woman I loved, and I said to her

”I love you, Edward James Olmos.”

The long exaggerated breath she’d take was adorable too.

She was very expressive.

One time, she went into a sandwich shop while I stayed in the car. I was parked in front, and could see in.

She was literally marching around the shop, waving something above her head, the whole time.

I asked what the hell happened in there when she got back. She looked at me confused, and told me it was a perfectly normal interaction and she was showing the worker her coupon.

honestly i get it. i joined in 2021 and that was cause i lost my nana. i am now unemployed on benifits and that still makes me feel like ass. i had 1 year with her but wish it was more as i loved that woman. its hard and always a uphill battle. the issue was my 19 yo brain (being autistic) told me that somehow a 69 yo would still be around when im like 50. was so unreal. i have only just started to except the fate this year. i was never given tools to deal with the issue but ill always love and think of her daily. she may have only been in my life for a year but man she made that year the best year it could have been. lets just say our love was so much that if i had any stress it would melt away the second i stepped into her house without me having to say everything. shed laugh at my grandma jokes and shed listen to me. we also had food and id pay whenever i could. wed also sit and watch tv together. i loved the stuff she watched. it was special. when she died i felt like id had my heart ripped out and i dtill feel like a robot. i even tell people im a robot to this day. lifes not the same without loved ones weather its pets family or (if your as lonely as i am nowadays) tech. luckily were always here in chats if you wanna talk