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I can relate to some of this. When I was young I learned that my appearance was unacceptable because I was fat. That was a long time ago. Still am fat and still don't care what I look like. Some things we learn are very hard to unlearn.

I sent in an appointment request through the portal to schedule a follow up appointment with my doctor finally (since I canceled my last one and didn't reschedule). But now the portal is different. Instead of it giving you the times and letting you schedule it by yourself, it makes you fill out what time frame you want. Okay, well I am putting it for October 31st because it is a Friday and there should be avaliable appointments. Yes it is further out but that should hopefully have an avaliable time. But this only sends in a request to the clinic. They are supposed to call you to actually schedule the appointment and put it in the system. They never called when I sent it in several days ago. So I resent it. Maybe they'll call. If not I have to call them. 🙄

I also need to see if I can get my meds refilled that I didn't get last time.

Was trying to do my refills on the pharmacy's website. I couldn't find my bp med bottle so I was going to have to call anyways. Well, the website messed up so I had to make sure those refills got sent in.

The clinic sent me a message on the portal and they tell me to call them to schedule my appointment. What the fuck is the point in having the "schedule your appointment " thing on your site if you are just going to tell the ppl to call you?! It is so unnecessary and idiotic 😤 I am just irritable since I don't have my meds yet.

Random side note- since having my tooth pulled that side of my face is now much flatter in appearance and my cheek isn't so "full" looking. It is slightly irritating because I like symmetry to some extent. Sure I enjoy asymmetrical haircuts and jewelry, but this is my face. I can change and alter my jewelry and hair to be more symmetrical but my actual face, that's a different story. Makes me want to have the opposite tooth pulled to make it balanced 😑

This isn't the same probably but I only realized "Wait, I'm not supposed to find my parents yelling at each other funny?" when I watched that one episode of Yokai Watch with Dismarelda. I like Yokai Watch still to an extent (though I don't keep up with it) but I wish I could undo that knowledge sometimes.

As a teenager I was unacceptable for my appearance too, and was laughted at/made fun of in public because when I was in heels I was taller than my father. He happened to be a rather shorter than average male, I am somewhat taller than average female. I still don't see why human society makes such a big bloody deal about appearance. It seems to me our brains are fucked up.

I care for you no matter your appearance, or your present level of esteem for yourself.

So I have had a lot of things on my mind for the last 3 months and I finally reached out to a couple of people to talk about these feelings. 1 hasn't responded and the other did immediately...however, some of their response kind of just makes me feel worse. It also kind of made me feel more conflicted. Kind of sucks too....guess I will just save it for my therapist and hope she can be more helpful.

So, apparently what they had to say is making me feel way worse than I thought because now I am crying. Maybe I should just stay quiet...

Still feeling pretty upset so I messaged my doctor on fb. It would be a convo we would eventually have anyways, and since I am still upset, and I dont see my therapist until Wednesday I decided to reach out to her. I know she won't judge me and by how things went when I messaged my "friend" she is the only one right now I feel I could reach out to until my session. I hate that I sent her such a long message, but she always reads whatever I write and never makes me feel bad for the length.

Been watching Steel Magnolias for a distraction.

That totally does sound the same actually. In both cases, it's this trauma response where these silly little innocent moments in things like tv shows or movies or games become loaded with all this meaning. I'm sorry that something as innocent as Yokai Watch has to be tainted a bit by that thought. Nobody should have to ask themselves that question.

I can totally relate btw, i've had a tonne of "wait, that isn't normal?" moments watching completely innocuous moments in tv shows over the years.

I'm so sorry that they made you feel unheard when you reached out. I can promise you, your feelings are valid, and deserve to be heard. You're a wonderful person, who deserves that same kind of energy in return.

My barber messed up my haircut again and I honestly don't know how he manages to do that. It's literally just a frayed bowl cut. (looks better than you think trust me)

That’s what a lot of my therapy consists of. I have a bad sense of what is and isn’t normal.

Exactly, yeah. If you spent a lot of formative years having all the wrong messages drilled into your head, it can take such a long time to de-program yourself and realise you have a really warped sense of what is and isn't normal. You were taught to accept things nobody should have to put up with. First you have to figure out what isn't normal, so you can work out what the normal thing is you actually want/need/deserve.

I'm at the end of my summer project, a 10 page essay on Candide, and my brain refuses to come up with a transition from the body of the essay to the conclusion!

The absolute stupidity of people. So, there was a post on fb that I thought was amusing the other day. It was something where someone was talking about Adam and Eve and saying maybe Adam was the one to take the apple and eat and lied about it and thats why men have Adam's apple, because Adam lied and it got stuck in their throat.

Okay. Go to comment section and a smart educated woman shares the knowledge that, all people have an Adam's apple. yes, women too. The people lost their minds and many showed how ignorant they are by arguing with her, and anyone who tried to agree or educate them. (Including me. Because, yes, I know my anatomy. For those who don't know, the Adam's apple is just the thyroid cartilage that surrounds and protects your larynx. So yes, women have them even if you don't see them or "feel" them. They are more prominent in men or those with higher testosterone levels. )

Worst yet, was someone saying something even more ignorant, that "next you're going to say women can get colon cancer 🙄"....ummm my first response was, "you do realize Sharon Osbourne, a woman, had colon cancer....right?

At this point, I fear that society is doomed. (You really can't fix stupid. can, you?)

Did...did they mean prostate cancer? 🤨
That's the only way i can make sense of that remark.
(And i mean, women can get prostate cancer, cos trans women exist, but i'm guessing their little remark was a weak attempt at transphobia, so...🤷🏻‍♀️)

Conclusions are always my least favorite part of writing a paper.

You know, I didn't even consider that but that does make more sense 🤔 if that was what they meant and they failed at getting their point across, then it's just hilarious. They said it with such conviction. 😅

I find conclusions easier than the beginning and middle, because all the ending technically should be is just a summary of what you have written. At least that's how I was taught in school and how I did my papers. But I haven't written anything in years.

I came across a hair color style that I really love and think is something I could do and maintain very easily for a long time. It also can compliment my extremely pale skin tone and the main color can go over my natural hair color without bleaching. Shockingly, it is with natural hair colors, not my usual blues, purples, pinks, greens ect.
I have to see if I can pick up some new hairdye Friday. There is 1 brand that's affordable and also has done great for my hair despite the abuse I have put it through over the years with bleaching and dying it. Even comes with a little conditioner pack.

I just wish my hair was longer right now, but I had chopped it all off. 😤 I think it will still be fine though. If I had patience I could wait a few months and let it grow out more bit I don't.

a series of unfortunate events and it has yet to end.

I’m already exhausted but the struggles are never ending