I'm kind of obsessed with aging well and health in general. I hate being in pain and not looking my best (I'm seeing everything through a new lense now, because I'm pretty certain I have high functioning autism, or Asperger's). I could go on and on about this subject until you guys here eyes would start going back in your head out of boredom and annoyance, lol. Depression also skews your interest and care about things you would normally care about, on a better day. I'm trying to at least exercise for 15 minutes every day, because I have scoliosis and also pain in my right shoulder that spreads to other areas/joints on my right side when I don't exercise.
Anyway, now I am even MORE cognizant of aging and death and all the unsavory thoughts that go with it, since my Mom has passed away. I think most people will be affected like that when a parent or someone close dies. It's not peaceful at all. I will admit that I am thinking about and realizing many things that are opening my eyes, since all I do is ruminate all day long. I feel angry and sad and apathetic at different times of the day. I notice that my lines on my face are deepening because I cry really hard at least a few times a week, and I try not to, because I don't want the wrinkles, but it's hard when I get a sad thought and it just consumes me. I think having a positive attitude/mind helps a lot when it comes to aging. And right now, I don't have that.
Anyway, now I am even MORE cognizant of aging and death and all the unsavory thoughts that go with it, since my Mom has passed away. I think most people will be affected like that when a parent or someone close dies. It's not peaceful at all. I will admit that I am thinking about and realizing many things that are opening my eyes, since all I do is ruminate all day long. I feel angry and sad and apathetic at different times of the day. I notice that my lines on my face are deepening because I cry really hard at least a few times a week, and I try not to, because I don't want the wrinkles, but it's hard when I get a sad thought and it just consumes me. I think having a positive attitude/mind helps a lot when it comes to aging. And right now, I don't have that.