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I think that's true. Just talking about what's actually going on with you encourages other people to do the same.

sorry for the late reply, I suppose this is another example of the disconnection I am always feeling. Even when I was more active in AA, as in going to meetings regularly, I just felt out of place. I was never good at sharing like how other people were. I was hesitant to get too close to other people, even my sponsor, who I am pretty sure may have passed away last year, which is another reason I have been avoiding meetings. I tried going to a different type of recovery meeting, spam, but that felt even more of a commitment than AA is.

I don't know if that really answered your question.

I have been here for well over a decade. I feel as though I may not be exactly where I was back in 2011, but I'm not sure I have any real strength or hope to share with others here either. Sorry, maybe that was too negative or nonsensical or something.

I have been trying to....I don't know, like going to the movies and stuff. But I just find myself regretting doing so. Going out, I'm reminded of how socially inept I am compared to others. I went to a book sale on saturday and had some pretty uncomfortable moments that created anxiety for me. And today at work.....just was another reminder of how unapproachable I am compared to others.

Sorry for always having nothing but negative things to say.

That's ok
That's a good answer. The questions I ask are intended to be for support, so it's ok to only answer them if you feel like it, and to answer them any way you want to.

It's not nonsensical. It brings me to a point that's maybe a bit out of the box thinking, though, not really when it comes to SF. May touched on it in their post above, but it's important enough to repeat, I think so anyway. The fact you don't have strength or hope to give to others is totally fine. Though, I hope this doesn't cause you distress. We very much want you to stick around. Just as you are, it's okay.

I'm just going to say right now that im not looking forward to today. Woke up second day in a row feeling bad. I really don't think I'm meant to feel things like good or happiness.

I'm sorry you're feeling so bad Sadhart