What were you doing when you were doing what you loved?
I used to do search engine optimization for websites. One of my best tasks in this job was to analyze competitors and make an action plan to increase traffic. One of my worst tasks was to explain to my boss verbally what needed to be done. I was good at explaining it in writing because I could do it in enough detail. However, it was quite difficult to do it in verbal communication.
I also faced the fact that my boss twisted my words in verbal communication as he wanted. Our calls were turning into some kind of battlefield. On the one hand I wanted to do the best for my projects, but on the other hand I faced tremendous resistance from my boss. He often asked repetitive questions, he often clung to one thing in my words and ignored everything else. It was quite abusive on his part. One of our conversations lasted 2.5 hours. And the whole time he was just trying to convince me to do what he wanted, even if it went against all of our original agreements that I had agreed to. I.e. he wanted me to do something other than what I had agreed to. Eventually he started threatening to fire me. The funniest part is that when I did what he wanted me to do, he chided me for not doing what we had agreed on before. With the contradictions of new tasks to old ones, I didn't know how it could be done. But these reproaches and accusations did not stop.
@Licorice , in the
thread about ChatGPT you talked about the need to communicate and find common ground. Here is my best response to what you said. Perhaps in time I'll have an even better answer, but that's what it is right now.
My strength, I think, is analytical thinking. I delve very deeply into a problem, and I find very interesting solutions. What's interesting: my suggestions to improve the sites condition were taken skeptically by my boss 2 years ago, but after a while he started implementing my plan. Of course, he didn't tell anyone that they were my ideas. I feel a little resentful.
Not too long ago I had a job interview. And I was faced with the fact that I need to show results from a past job. But my results and all my work are under a non-disclosure agreement. Plus, it's important for recruiters to see a confident person. And I don't talk very confidently if I have any doubts. One big doubt I have is working eight hours. It's torture for me. Besides, they need a person who will be in charge of 3-5 projects at a time, and that is not my style. I am able to dive deeply into one task, but several at once is a problem.
I've come to the conclusion that I need to look for a good team first, not just money. But I am not sure that the business wants to give me what I need. And I am not sure that I can give the business what it needs. Especially if it meets contradictions and resistance within me.