Practical Advice (URGENT) I don't want to deal with "services" anymore, how do I get out of it with zero consiquences?

Admittedly I'm very nervous about trying to argue my case of why I suddenly decided not to go. I don't want this decision being held against me in the future.

It didn't work, apparently because this agency is from the government and changing the name is a hassle or whatever. My only other option was to tell my parents to give me all the agency of this thing they're setting me up with. Hopefully then I can get the bare fucking minimum (transportation and MAYBE antidepressants) and nothing more. So not all hope is lost? Maybe? I don't even fucking know at this point. I've been through these events that are worse than death before, I have no idea why I even keep fucking trying to go on.

Hmm. I do not want to say much. I would just like to invite you to watch one movie - seems the guy had similar problems:

"Into the wild"

A real story. Might help you to decide, see consequences and possibilities.

Second on “Into the Wild”. I read the book and it was amazing. I do have a love of the outdoors, which is what got me to pick up the book in the first place.

I can imagine that by your name, LumberJack... Welcome to the club of nature lovers. Come to Spain one day.

I might take you up on that. I have always wanted to visit Spain since I learned about the siesta.
Pretty sure it was around 16 years old for me. I thought that a cultural tradition that was so unbelievably sensible would be a good place to visit. I have since lived in Arizona, and why we don’t take a siesta there is just ridiculous to me.

Yep. ES is something: No shop will open before 0900 or 0930.... lunch (with siesta) every day from 1400 to 1600 or 1630, then shops open again until late. Nice to be here - I can tell you. I love the walks (lots of mountains here and nice nature) and all is cool (no stress here, or not often). Anyway, welcome any time. Just tell me. We also have an apartment in Senegal (Ziguinchor - Cap Skirring) - in case a siesta in Africa is something for you too. I will be down there in January and February.

Welcome - Siesta, Tinto, Chorizo, Tortilla... you name it.

I do not know your age - but it seems for the moment everything just pisses you off.
Dentist - I know it can be hard. But it is harder later on, trust me. One infection or a broken tooth - and there you go. I was once in a country without a dentist available (Kabul) and had to wait 3 weeks before I could get out to get treatment in Europe. Do what you feel like - but keeping teeth in order is important: Otherwise its getting expensive and painful.

For the rest - what do you actually do? School? Nothing? Work? If I would be in your situation I would change it. Whatever it takes - but ok, we are all different.

Wish you luck. Its your life.

Turns out the meeting was literally nothing but insurance talk. I feel stupid for panicking over it but now I have to do a bunch of stupid paperwork "for my sake" and I'm having a lot of my free time stripped away from me. Due to having to apply for SSI, even when I go back to my room I'm not safe because I keep getting texts from them to SS my bank stuff or whatever. Idek if this is gonna get me free government money or not, why even bother?