Relative died very suddenly..

Thanks.

I am currently safe.

I need professional support and have been told to wait ( probably for several months) It would seem I have to be in the middle of a suicide attempt or practically dead before they'll actually let me get a bit of talk therapy.

Can't afford private therapy. In too much debt Thanks to one of my ex abusers.

And lucky me, on top of it all have recently realised/acknowledged to myself that my ex completely brainwashed me. I mean, I almost entirely lost my self. I was not me anymore. So that's great. Just what I needed to realise after my fathers unexpected death.

I'm glad that you had a dad that you loved so much, but I'm sorry that it hurts so much to have lost him.

There are some books about grieving that might help, especially if you're facing long delays in getting therapy. I can say more about that if you're interested.

Sending hugs

An Introduction to Coping with Grief, 2nd Edition

Sue Morris


This is from the reading-well.org.uk booklist. The books there have been vetted by at least one mental health professional. There might be some other books either from that list or elsewhere that might be good too.