I'm putting this here, since it seems the best spot for it. I'm sorry about all the whinging I've done, and the lack of healing, or growth. I do understand some of the harsher comments I've recieved lately. I should be more focused on being grateful for what I have, but what with the last few year's concatenation I became devastated and broken.
You have absolutely nothing to apologise for. This forum as I see it is peer to peer support for people to speak out where they may not be able to in other venues, such as at home or at work, or may not have people they can talk to.
Do you think I'm winging as our emotional situation is similar, I'm being hard here, just to encourage you to consider that how you feel is all apart of your process. If others are being harsh within their comments to you, that's their problem and their limited experience. You should only be the way you want to be and focus on what you think rather than being emotionally forced to heal because it might make other people uncomfortable.
I feel from reading your posts, especially viewing your lovely nature photography that you are grateful for what you have. If you feel you have lack of healing and lack of growth I would encourage you to think, what am I to do now and work on that, but come up with that yourself, on your own terms, at your own pace. You are in control and the forum here is for you and everyone else to get peer support from fellow members.
I hope your doing okay, you have an amazing amount of strength and I have faith in you to be the way you want to be.