I want to be able minded enough to have the mental age of a fully grown adult without struggling to act and think like one - even though I'm not fit or capable enough to avoid having my brain disability get in the way of daily living and everything else in life! I'm not even mentally capable enough to avoid damaging property because of lack of coordination, lack of cognitive, lack of executive functioning, etc. Not being able to have the brain or mind of a 40 year old is frustrating and torturous enough without my parents constantly pointing out how old I am and being very toxic and psychologically abusive about my mental disability. I see myself as mentally disabled, at the moment my unpleasant quality of life is no better than that of someone with severe autism - I might as well be SEVERELY AUTISTIC!!!!
My brain disabling condition is nothing but a burden both to myself and my family - in fact to society as a whole. Being on the autism spectrum is pure torture for the person suffering from the brain disability.
All I want is to have the mental age of at least 30 or at least close to 30 - even though my limited mental age means I'm unable to act or think my exact age. It's something that will continue troubling my extremely fragile mind for the rest of my troubled life. I will probably continue looking at those in their twenties and thirties, trying to learn from them and struggling like someone who is too severely mentally disabled to even function at all.
By the time I reach 60, I will have the mental age of someone close to 40 but will end up looking back on my forties and being severely depressed about how extremely unpleasant they were. In fact I won't even live to see 60 - I will be DEAD at 50 or even before the age of 50! I will have ended up taking my own life by then!
My brain disabling condition is nothing but a burden both to myself and my family - in fact to society as a whole. Being on the autism spectrum is pure torture for the person suffering from the brain disability.
All I want is to have the mental age of at least 30 or at least close to 30 - even though my limited mental age means I'm unable to act or think my exact age. It's something that will continue troubling my extremely fragile mind for the rest of my troubled life. I will probably continue looking at those in their twenties and thirties, trying to learn from them and struggling like someone who is too severely mentally disabled to even function at all.
By the time I reach 60, I will have the mental age of someone close to 40 but will end up looking back on my forties and being severely depressed about how extremely unpleasant they were. In fact I won't even live to see 60 - I will be DEAD at 50 or even before the age of 50! I will have ended up taking my own life by then!
