Finally feeling like I can have a life but now I’m to old
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I feel it exactly with me. I admit my better days/younger days? are long past. Dreams unfulfilled and lost opportunities but it has no been horrible because I know many have it worse. At 56 so younger than some and older than others I feel the oddest to remember something from decades past like it was just yesterday while trying to remember something from a week ago and having to think about it. I have hit that age where I still may have decades before me but I am old enough that why bother and too lazy to bother.
Yeah, the last wedding I went to was in 2000.It was my sister in law's brother. My nephew ( who is now getting married) was the ring bearer which was the only reason I went. When the pastor said God has made someone for everyone, it's a gift from him blah blah blah, I started crying and went into the bathroom. I promised myself I would never go to a wedding again and put myself through that pain. I haven't been invited to many weddings but I have declined those few. I want ugly although I felt that way. Now I'm just non descript. I feel less than human.
You choose what you want to see.... you dont know behind those doors those tears, those struggles each couple has made.... before they met each other plus what i see in each video I wonder how is the person doing now? Are they ok? Are they still together even if odds on stats says nope. Are they still alive?
It is sad to see people are having regrets on their lives being wasted when it was not wasted at all it was your own race to run not anybody elses. Its up to you how you want to finish it, your own life is to be lived by you only. Not anyone elses. I have been dealt with crappy cards and learned something long time ago. Once I turned 18, its my own personal responsibility to determine my outcome. Its my own attitude that sets the path for me. I can choose to feel sorry for myself or I can choose to do something about it as changing what I want to as it is never too late what age I am at right now to meet those dreams. You hear that the 60 is the new 30 nowadays? Never know what life will bring tomorrow.
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Perhaps you mean well but this comes off as quite harsh. Sometimes it's difficult to navigate tone. This wasn't even aimed at me and I feel hurt. Some of us are grieving for the experiences we did not have despite all attempts.
You are obviously here for a reason as am I and @Alone2020. We are all in pain.
You are obviously here for a reason as am I and @Alone2020. We are all in pain.
Im deaf. I get one of the shit deals in life . Everyone thinks they get the crap end of the deal. Its UP to ME to deal with the extra challenges to live life. It is MY attitude and dealing with the cards that has been dealt to me.
Why is it everytime someone asks me a question and I happen to know they are asking me something or making a converstation guess what majority of them say after I say Im deaf and point to my ears IRL..... OH IM SORRY! And walk away.
What am I? Chopped liver? Everyone has pain and have different pain tolerance and goes through life differently.
I have seen the worst humanity has to offer, I also have seen the best humanity has to offer as well. Because I changed my attitude and was able to see more clearly.
Just FYI
If YOU want to feel unoffended then do not hang out in this section. Go to the empathy section of SF and stay there. Im not apologizing that you felt offended... Everyone isnt going to say everything you want to hear or have life go your way the way you want it to be served to you. Work for it. This is a rat race after all. Its still your attitude at the end of the day when you go to sleep to make the best out of it.
Rage is my fiend and is always lying in wait in the shadows for my spark to start the fireball. I know. I have been there. Being angry is not going to get you anywhere.
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