So the past 5 days or so have been rough. Saturday night I felt a wave of hopelessness and depression. Couldn’t fall asleep. Ruminations and constant “you should just end it” voices. Made it thru the night but Sunday wasn’t much better. Reached out to a volunteer at The Trevor Project and they helped ease me back down.
Yesterday my wife went in for ankle surgery. It went fine, but when we got home it felt like spinning plates. Two toddlers, six dogs. Trying to let my wife rest and keep everything as calm as possible.
Insurance company is being unhelpful in this whole process. I am out of work for the next 3 weeks. I am taking FMLA, which means I still get paid, but we’ve been living off the large amount of OT I make on a regular basis.
Trying to tell myself this is a season that won’t last forever. Trying to trust in God to provide financially and mentally. I think the past year has given me the coping skills to recognize my emotions and to handle the stress better than I once did.
I don’t want to add to my wife’s situation by melting down or raging. Thanks to anyone who reads this. Just needed to vent.
Yesterday my wife went in for ankle surgery. It went fine, but when we got home it felt like spinning plates. Two toddlers, six dogs. Trying to let my wife rest and keep everything as calm as possible.
Insurance company is being unhelpful in this whole process. I am out of work for the next 3 weeks. I am taking FMLA, which means I still get paid, but we’ve been living off the large amount of OT I make on a regular basis.
Trying to tell myself this is a season that won’t last forever. Trying to trust in God to provide financially and mentally. I think the past year has given me the coping skills to recognize my emotions and to handle the stress better than I once did.
I don’t want to add to my wife’s situation by melting down or raging. Thanks to anyone who reads this. Just needed to vent.
