death is more preferable than accepting HPD

they think i am so romantic that i dont just date specific partners but loads of random strangers, hence ppl i dont recognise say "i love you" to me

whenever i try to walk at night i dont feel safe. i flinch when i hear sudden loud noises hoping its just a dog.

i always feel like i am too cringe and i dont pass enough. i feel so much dysphoria from not regulating overwhelming emotions at all.

tomorrow, in spite of my agoraphobic tendencies, i want to be in . i will feel like snufkin.
esp rural makws me think of my childhood nostalgicly but in a kind of creepy way and that makes it attractive. but i reallt doubt i could handle it sober i csnt decide if im gonna do dxm or pregablins. if i go there sober ill have a very bad time. with it being sunday theres less people in general thats good

i do NOT want to be histrionic. anythimg but. me displaying excessive dramatic emotiomal displays and attention seeking provokes an overwhelming visceral dysphoric feeling

It's a bit unusual if strangers say that to you, but I don't see anything that suggests that saying that means they think you have loads of random partners.