I finally figured out why I was down in the dumps these years. When you become mentally sick, i think people start stripping of our human dignity. No judgement tho but i think that's what has happened in my life. And you get depressed when you spend time with them because subconsciously you want them to honor you but that just might not work. No one's perfect and it's okay if they see me that way. I just have to build up my walls and let go of them. I'm sorry that we have to go through this. I think every mentally sick person might go through this. I think we gotta heal and not other people's opinions hurt us. We'll be okay.