Post ED weight gain

after struggling with an ED and then recovering (at least mostly), i've returned to my normal weight and then added about 30 more pounds. this is the heaviest i've been in my life and i feel awful. I know weight gain is to be expected but I just want to be where I was at when I had started getting an ED, which was around 105-110. i've been using intuitive eating which has led to an awful diet, but i am also a very picky eater and struggle heavily with "healthy" foods like vegetables. I like fruits okay. the base thing is after finally healing my relationship with food i've gained a shit ton of weight, and now feel awful and want to relapse all again. I'm not sure what to do, because i lost weight quickly doing it the disordered way but i also don't know any other way to do it, especially because I'm short and bad at having a healthy diet.

Hi @thereisnothing ,
It is hard to figure out a new normal after an eating disorder. What did you learn in treatment/recovery? The Answer depends on your ED. Why is your current diet?
For me, eating small meals, snacks helped increase metabolism. Adding consistent movement, exercise is vital. Sometimes having a time that you don’t eat after. like: No eating after 7 PM.
i think talking about it more can help.