I feel like this at times, too. I was even in a severe depression from December 2024 through February 2025. It was very difficult to see any positive outcome that would offset the amount of pain that I was in.
The only way I survived was to decide that I would not let the pain crush me, no matter what. In so doing, I found inner resources of strength and resilience, in fact the same strength that got me through other trials in life. I had just forgotten.