I identify as trans-typal, no-one gets my typenouns correct, I am very miserable because of it

Help I got ESFJified by a bus driver, everyone is getting my typenouns incorrect.

I am so triggered by being asked to say thank you for a bus ticker. It implies weakness impulsiveness childishness.

I want brain surgery to become as INTX as possible.

I identify as trans-typal. I want to be APATHETIC, DISSOCIATIVE, CYNICAL, ORIGINAL, HYPERINDIVIDUALISTIC, EMOTIONALLY INEXPRESSIVE, ETC. But everywhere I go everyone treats me like the opposite - cowardly, dramatic, Karen, old woman, illogical, uncool, childish (basically everything I do not want to be) and it is highly distressing

I make certain personality trais and vibes and mannerisms etc part of my identity and I base my self-worth off of it.
E.g. being more overpacker than everyone else causes a lot of distress.

I don't want to be overly emotional and illogical. I dont want to be a primadonna.
I don't want to be overly visceral.
I don't want to be an oversharer and long-winded.
I don't want to be too tuned into my five senses.
EVERYTHING I DONT WANT TO BE I AM, IT'S A CATCH 22, THIS IS WHY I WANT BRAIN SURGERY SO MUCH

It means so much to me. I'm very sad every day because of it. Seeing all kinds of strangers in public is distressing, I feel so inferior to everyone.

Strangers comment and judge my behaviour all of the time and it is distressing because it is not how I want to be.

I don't want to be impulsive, impatient, clingy, likes to eat, emotionally expressive. It's not part of my identity. To be those traits causes so much distress.

I am so ashamed to seek therapy.

"Help I got ESFJified by a bus driver" everyone is getting my typenouns incorrect. I mean no disrespect, but is this a troll?

People can only treat you in the way that they perceive you. Is there any way that random strangers like bus drivers can know how you wish to be perceived?

I really dont like myself.

I'm typegender.

Typegender is a form of identity I invented. Exactly like gender dysphoria but instead of gender identity it's typology.

from my knowledge, op isn’t intending to troll. I’m familiar with op’s post history on other sites from years ago
op has autism

Been wondering for awhile why the instance on Myers brigg typology. It's generally been considered pseudoscience due in part to it's low retest ability. Like taking it on Monday and being a infp and Friday being a infj as a example.

op is aware of this since me and others have mentioned it but has autism and a fixation on typology possibly related to autism special interest

been wondering what I can say to help. hope what we say helps even a fraction

Not sure if it's helpful but as far as I understand it this is the only personality type test that is not considered at least somewhat BS by professionals. The big 5 personality test.
https://openpsychometrics.org/tests/IPIP-BFFM/