Venting I AM PEOPLE PHOBIC

i wish i had a massive visible sign permanently attached to all my clothes, "pls dont talk to me or say nything abt me" and people acknowledged and respected it

i was minding my own business tying to skateboard in the dark my evening was completely ruined when i overheard someone from their house say "you shouldnt be up at this time" (it was only 11.30pm) and "paperclip" (they notice how much of an UN skater i am) this is DEVASTATING the entire world is disrespecting my identity as the kind of person that skateboards at night. 😭😭😭😭😭

everywhere i go everyone knows who i am. and literally every single thing i make part of my identity they perceive me as the opposite as. my neighbourhood is a total fucking HELL scape where i dont feel safe at all even at night.

translated into typese, i would rather die by being < mod edit - graphic method > than accept being exfx heart triad sx/so ESE EIE SEE normie.

having ones identity affirmed and being comfortable with oneself to function is a fucking human need, having it denied makes me completely suicidal

You ever join a club

the comments peoppe make about me in public make me suicidal. everyone knows who i am. and they perceive me as overly visceral, hysterical, needy, loud, clingy, fat, woman, attention-seeking, lovey dovey. i want to be the opposite so badly, more than the grieved mourn over their deceased loved ones. pale skin messy hair eyebags nocturnal baggy clothes apathy means the world to me.

i wish there was a transtypal clinic. transtypal people are isolated from society in completely safe prison like spaces, their typedentities are acknowledged and respected. and they undergo neuroplasticity procedures to slowly transition to their typedentities before re integrating to the outer world.

i go to this transgender thing every tuesday. but thats only once a week. even that it feels kinda off, theres no one i really like or get on well with.

strangers making comments and jokes about me that threaten my typedentity are as upsetting as being misgendered

it insults my typedentity

my ideal self is the opposite of stiff snd uncool
my ideal self is authentic and does not care about trying to appear interesting