I WANT TO DIE BECAUSE I AM NOT MY IDEAL SELF

i feel like i am getting more and more further away from my ideal self with age

it breaks my heart whenever ppl tell me that everyone has distress.
it feels invalidating


responses from internet strangers went from "youre an interesting person" "im so sorry you are in so much pain" "that must be awful" to "be happy someone is giving you attention"

I DONT WANT TI BE ESFP 2W3 I DONT WANT TO BE ESFP 2W3 I DONT WANT TO BE ESFP 2W3

IT IS PURE AGONY MULTIPLIED BY TWNRY FOLD

IT IS MORE HELLISH THAN HELL