After more than 20 years now, I feel like it’s gone consistently downhill. Since joining this site, I’ve been looking at things on a scale of 1-10 like that stickied post. Every time I screw something up, no matter how small, it feels like a 10 and then ruminates in my head turning the whole day to a 10. There’s no reset. It’s just 10 after 10 after 10. I can’t do anything right. How do you fix that? How do you fix the feeling that everyone you come into contact with hates you, makes fun of you, and thinks you’re an incompetent moron? How do you fix feeling like an idiot when something wrong to someone else doesn’t even register to a 1 but to you it’s a 10? How do you fix someone that doesn’t believe there is a solution, but also believes that even if there was one that they couldn’t do whatever was required no matter how much help they got? I feel like such a lonely failure…