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I'm at my lowest again

kikin

kikin

Member
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#1
The first time I hit my lowest, the time I was most suicidal, and depressed was mid 2023 to early 2024. Yet again, I am so depressed, suicidal, and mad. I am mad at myself, and my life.
I want to commit suicide, but I'm not ready yet, I'm too scared to die, I don't and do want to. I'm scared of everyday, having my thoughts everyday, I try to distract myself, but I keep on having these thoughts that, again, I don't want to have.
 
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Oizys Moros

Well-Known Member
#2
#2
Kikin

We hear you and are glad that you aren’t ready yet.

I hope that you can find positive distractions that may lift your spirits.
Nostalgic memories that bring happiness and joyful times.

We are here to listen and support you through these tough days.
*brohug
 
KM76710

KM76710

Kangaroo Manager
SF Pro
SF Supporter
#4
#4
Sad hearing how things are going. You have our support here and wishes that things turn better for you and with how you are feeling. Wish there was more that we could offer up to yourself and others.
 
1964dodge

1964dodge

Has a monkey as a friend
Safety & Support
SF Supporter
#5
#5
kikin said:
The first time I hit my lowest, the time I was most suicidal, and depressed was mid 2023 to early 2024. Yet again, I am so depressed, suicidal, and mad. I am mad at myself, and my life.
I want to commit suicide, but I'm not ready yet, I'm too scared to die, I don't and do want to. I'm scared of everyday, having my thoughts everyday, I try to distract myself, but I keep on having these thoughts that, again, I don't want to have.
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please keep fighting those thoughts. hopefully those thoughts will someday be gone or at least less severe. using me as an example i was very suicidal for a long time but by fighting it things got a lot better. sometimes those thoughts come back but rarely any serious thoughts. hopefully you can do the same in the future.

mike....*hug*console*shake
 
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painfully

Active Member
#6
#6
kikin said:
The first time I hit my lowest, the time I was most suicidal, and depressed was mid 2023 to early 2024. Yet again, I am so depressed, suicidal, and mad. I am mad at myself, and my life.
I want to commit suicide, but I'm not ready yet, I'm too scared to die, I don't and do want to. I'm scared of everyday, having my thoughts everyday, I try to distract myself, but I keep on having these thoughts that, again, I don't want to have.
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What happened?
 
Fbr27

Fbr27

Well-Known Member
#7
#7
Suicide is just another word when you don't see a way out of some situation.

But the future doesn't exist in a way. The future is just what we do right now and what those things change our lives.

The worst alternative for suicide is living a miserable life until the end of our days or turning into someone we don't really like, changing our traits and becoming another person.

Why we fear that so much? I don't know.
 
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