WHERE CAN I START A TRANSTYPAL COMMUNITY

i am having am awful experience

it started with girls out ideal selfing me waiting for the bus
it worsened loads when these two kids anti selfied me by catcalling me. i began crying.
then it worsened when these two other people told me to not care what others think - i do not typedentify as an enneagram two. then it REALLY worsened when someone else dismissed my pain and thought i was attentiom seeking and hysterical- the OPPOSITE OF MY IDEAL SELF. I WANT TO DIE. I WANT TO DIE.

also how i cried so loudly in public i am so ashamed

I IDENTIFY AS TRANSTYPAL

you can not tell a transtypal person to accept themselves as they are. they just cant.

i do not typedentify as esfj 2w3. crying in public, exagrrtating emotional displays for attention, oversharing, and getting triggered by how others perceive me is NOT part of my typedentity. i typedentify as the opposite.

typese is my language.

my ideal self is ANYTHING but emotionally expressive and reactive

the louder i cry
the more esfj i am
the more e2 i am
the redder my cheeks
the more catcalled i get
the more i get labelled dramatic, over reacting, a burden, attention seeking, etc

the fatter i feel

no hate intended

Very broad generalisations
so stupid of me to assume intp 5w6 = skinny pale detached esfj 2w3 = fat hysterical etc ALL THE TIME NO MATTER WHAT

there are fat stoics, muscular drama queens, easily angered blondes, etc. its waaay more nuanced.

but i cant accept myself at all
i want an entirely diffdrerent brain

as a transtypal person, typese is my language. its how i understand people and stuff.

exhibiting irrational, emotionally expressive or attention-seeking behaviour is as dysphoric to me as having a penis would feel to a trans woman or a vagina to a trans man

I didn't mean to lessen your pain experience or invalidate or saying that you're not welcome here.
It's more like a thought that may help you obviously I can be wrong
Can you afford therapy , maybe it will help you a lot ?

If you could start a transtypal community, I think that could be very helpful for you.

Do you think transtypal people would also be likely to be transgender, or would it be largely indepenent of gender identity per se?

I say that because if most or all transtypal people would also be transgender, you could focus your efforts on finding transtypal people with existing transgender resources and organizations.