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Hi everyone I just joined last night and wanted to say hi and say thank you all for everything that you're sharing. I don't feel so alone in my struggles..

I'm feeling pretty decent right now which is why I wanted to find a space where I can come to when I'm not feeling good, because I have a tendency to wipe away the dark experiences when they happen and get kind of manic and then think that they're never going to come back again, which just isn't the case.

I've struggled with wanting to take my life for quite a long time yet somehow I'm still here so there must be a part of me that wants to live

I came to recognize in the last few years that I'm likely on the spectrum and that's turned out to be the key in understanding so much of what I've struggled with throughout my life.

I've been through quite a lot of trauma and lost loved ones and nearly lost my own life through substance abuse though I haven't had any slip-ups for over 3 years and I'm really proud of that.

It feels like I'm on the crest of good things happening in my life but this has come up before and then I self-sabotage it and end up in a pit of blackness and self-regret, so I'm hoping that having some community can help me stay grounded in the next while.

Other than that I love reading, writing and nature and live a simple life with lots of solitude, creativity and a few close friends.

Thanks for reading 🦄

Hi @MoonArc Good to have you on board.
pleased you are in a better place atm, SF is a great supportive community, so you have definitely come to the right place.
Hoping you stay well, but we are here for those darker periods as well. Xx

Glad you joined us! This is a platform for sharing and seeking support in a compassionate community. Feel free to express yourself freely, and remember, there's no pressure to do more than you're comfortable with.

Hi and welcome. Seems you could be from my family - so similar.... I should be dead by now, like you substance misuse (multiple) etc. has accompanied me my whole life. But it's ok - I keep it now since years on a homeopathic level. And never fell back since ages. While getting older I realized that alcohol can become dangerous too - so I stopped this as well. I try to do as much sport as possible - but like you, there are months I am really ok and fit - but then - boum -> end for 4 weeks and completely on the bottom. Its difficult to get out again - but there is no other choice. Until now I made it all the time - remains to be seen how long I will continue. Just like you I love nature, loneliness, risks and adrenaline, walks in nature, sport...Minimalist - all my items would fill two suitcases plus a guitar. Not more.

Keep on writing - it's interesting. What do you write? Read? Courage and greetings from Spain.

Thank you for sharing your story @MoonArc. Also, welcome to SF where you'll find a supportive and friendly group of folks. I do hope that we can help keep you grounded as you say. There are sections here for many different interests, once you get comfortable navigating. Glad that you found us here.

Thank you for your message and I'm sorry to hear that you've also struggled with substance use. I also feel amazed I made it through and sometimes I'm like: to give up now would be a slap in the face to whatever divine intervention has protected me thus far..

When you say homeopathic do you mean drugs of the psychedelic variety and micro dosing?

I read a lot of graphic novels, political books and poetry. Mostly I write as it comes out.. Hbu?

Wishing u the strength to ride the waves and greetings from Turtle Island ^_^

Thank u ❤️

Thanks for the kind responses everyone, have a great day/night/afternoon wherever u are 🌹

Hello and welcome!
I'm glad that SF is helping. Feeling less alone is one of the things members often like best about SF.

Well, it's a microdosis - more or less. I need to take two painkillers per day (low dose). But it has been going on for so many years - so I accepted it (and my doc too). Like you it's a miracle to still be alive - and I mean it. I found peace, an interesting job abroad in many countries - and try to enjoy life. I will never give up - but MSD is tricky and from time to time I fall back - and have to stand up again. No further help here. I do everything myself. Well, seems I am resistant.

But - life has to offer so much and I have a good plan for this year (concerning vacation, family etc.). Lots of changes - positive. By the way - what Turtle Island? Borneo, Fiji, Canada or US? I love the tropical Islands....

I am pleased that you have found the spot here and that you are experiencing the welcoming attitudes here. You are among a fine group and yes, being here does make so many feel and see that they do have the support and advice so I hope you keep joining in here.

That sounds reasonable and good for you for having the self-discipline. I sometimes succumb to smoking cigarettes and I try not to be too hard on myself about it given all the vices that are available in the world

That's great that you have things to inspire you in the coming days, good luck with everything! Are you writing about your experiences?

Turtle Island is the name for North America and beyond, and it's comes from the mythos of many Indigenous peoples. It's a way of honoring those who have been here for so long and to be a part of the healing of these lands. The area that I'm from is in the Pacific Northwest..