I use WELCOME to say GOODBYE for a while

I am now in this forum since a year - and honestly, it has helped a lot, was funny, interesting, nice and sometimes made me cry. I realize recently that my comments are more and more "normal", based on my experience and sometimes do not fit any longer. This is one reason, why I take a break. On the other side, many things have been solved during this year. Suicidal ideas are gone (although I would not mind dying), there is no self-harm, there is no more administrative bullshit to carry out (except marrying in 3 months, which is the maximum for the visum of my wife), all is paid, the financial crisis is over (somebody I never thought helped me out - its a gift) - the only things that are left are now physical. I mean I was most of the time in the gym and walked very often. But I had days and even sometimes weeks, when I was not able to move. This is changing now - no other way. I have now 6 weeks left until my wife arrives and I will be in good form, promised. I am not doing this for her - but for me. She accepts me like I am - even if I would be disabled. That is a good feeling. So, my days are easy now and planned:

0600 wake up, 0730 shower, 0800 clean quickly apartment, 0845 gym, 1000 shopping (I only drink water with lemon for the moment and the next 5 weeks - please do not follow my example, ok?, then I make a short break for WhatsApp etc. then I walk the 24 KM from Santo Domingo to Santurze and retour. Day over - patient dead and sleeping. That is all. And I will stick to this whatever comes,

I overcame so many things, that the rest is peanuts (except I have still to reduce the rest of diazepam - but doctor is on my side and helps me). The car to pick my wife up from the airport is rented, daugther will disappear in France to study - so finally we might be able to enjoy my/our retirement. There is enough money, I have a nice apartment, we are both minimalists (no, wonder- she is from Africa), - so what do we need? Except all three months a nice vacation? And this is how we will live - 2 months Spain, 1 month vacation.

Sorry to quote - but Jesus was right: If you have something to eat (or in my case to drink), clothes and a place to sleep - what else do you need? Love? Yes. So, bye for a while. I will be in here egain after the marriage failed (its not possible within three months) and then she has to go back to Africa for a last time for 3 months, before we can fianlise it. But I will report.

Thank you all good people here. I made a last song for you, hope you like it: https://www.youtube.com/shorts/aQOCeyJ18xg

I'm glad things are better for you now. It's ok if you want to spend some time away from SF, but please don't feel like you have to go because your comments don't fit. No one is expecting your input to fit perfectly every time. If you're generally doing more good than harm when replying to threads and trying to improve, that's good enough.

Hope to see you back here soon if you feel like coming back.

Take all the time you need because some times a break can be beneficial and a good little rest. You have a place with us for anytime you decide to return and check in.

Yds, you definitely don't as in - do not have to be suicidal or even all that depressed, to be here @Survivorist ~So, I really hope you know taht!! And I wish you wel l on your travels. Be safe, and we'll be here if & when hyou need us! Thanks a bunch, for all you've done (to help others on here). Your work, has been noble. I find~ . . . ) Until we meet again: D dr. b^~* } that's a joke.