What I'm dealing with

Hi, everyone. Not motivated to write much, I'll give an unorganized sample of my current position:

Have many issues - mental, developmental, traumas, self-identity; only ones diagnosed are depression and anxiety

History a long time ago of hospitalizations, one or two (I'm not sure which) suicide attempts, one or two episodes that looked like attempts but were not

Currently in between therapists; process for finding one is overwhelming, leading me to huge amounts of anxiety and taking it slowly; not on meds either; don't know what to do

Not working, not doing much with my life

Don't think that ideation is especially dangerous; I fantasize about escaping from challenges and that is the ultimate escape

Recently discovered a coping tool that can redirect feelings; it works great but has scary aspects; don't ask what it is

I like to be helpful, tend to write a lot in forums

Welcome to SF. Hope you find a good therapist. I know it can be a pain to find one. A good one anyway. Hope to see you around.

Welcome to SF...you'll find an amazing group of wonderful individuals here. I encourage you to explore the forums and if you are interested in real time check out the chat.

I too wish you luck with finding a therapist as know it isn't easy...but is worth it in the end. Encourage you to keep posting and welcome again.

Hello and welcome to SF Cutesie!
If you want suggestions about treatment methods, I could try to make some, but it's also ok if you don't want that.

I hope you will like the forums

Some of the things that I have:

Anxiety
Depression
Traumas
Eating problems
Terrible sense of worth and ability
Sleeping problems
Complex family issues (many)
Addictive thoughts and behaviors
Resistance to anything challenging
Complicated sexual and identity issues

Probably have:
ADHD
Some kind of developmental disability

Only the first two have resulted in diagnoses.

You're welcome to try. I posted a very partial list, which shows why it's so hard figuring out how to address anything. When I've gone to therapy, we never got past the starting gate.

I just posted on your other thread. I hope something can help.