See, to me, life is a pursuit for the truth of what "goodness" even is. We're dumped into this world full of injustice and hatred, depravity and immorality, and left to find our own way to decency and virtue. And one thing you see an awful lot of in this world is wolves in sheep's clothing. Televangelists, hatemongers, cult leaders, warmongers, etc. All promising salvation, all leading you down a path to damnation. You think the crusaders have a reserved space in heaven? Does Fred Phelps, or the rest of the WBC? Does Jimmy Swaggart?
So the way i see it, how can i ever truly be a good person if i refuse to question my basic understanding of what good is? If i was born in nazi Germany, should i not question if it's good to persecute Jews? If i was born in 19th-Century England, should i not question if it's good to use slave labour? In both cases, these countries sold their abhorrent practices as the will of God. So if Lucifer himself wants to show me a path to doing the genuinely right thing, should i refuse to follow it because of who's showing me the way? God let him into the garden of Eden for a reason, whatever that reason is, so clearly God sees something in him. Someone has to run hell. Someone has to tempt us towards sin, to make the choice to be virtuous mean anything. Does the being performing those roles automatically have to be evil themselves, or do they simply represent the necessity of evil?
I have questions, and i refuse to just take "trust us, this is good, that is bad" for an answer. Nobody here on earth truly has the answer to who God is, or what God wants of us, because God is beyond our mortal understanding. And that means i have questions and doubts about God, and his ostensibly perfect morality.
But supposedly that's blasphemy, because we're meant to just accept whatever he tells us to do or think, instead of determining for ourselves what the right thing is, and making the conscious choice to try and make things better. Not because we want some big cosmic reward, or fear some big cosmic punishment, but because we simply want to be good people. That's why i actually suspect a good atheist has a better shot at entering heaven than a good theist. Their motives are purer. This idea you could live a perfectly moral life and still be denied the light of heaven, just because you didn't take some mortal preacher's word that he knows who God really is, is absurd to me.
That's also why i actually like the Islamic concept of Barzakh. They pull back the curtain, provide the answers to all the burning spiritual questions you have, and then give you time to decide if you can truly accept Allah's guiding light into your heart. Your time on earth is just a testing ground to prepare you for this final challenge. And if i get to the afterlife, and i'm satisfied with what God has to say for himself, sure, then i'll happily become one of his faithful. I just have no interest in taking up his mantle until i can know for sure what his deal is, because here on earth i hear a lot of misinformation and conflicting interpretations. So while i'm here, i'm open to hearing out whoever i think makes actually salient moral points. I insult God with my existence and my opinions, but what i'm opposed to isn't truly God himself, rather the deeply flawed, and yet somehow supposedly infallible, image of him we're given in this plane of existence.