I was 15 about to turn 16 and I have some undiagnosed mental health things which I had written a journal about on quotev.
This guy reached out one day and said he was interested in people like me and had never met anyone who experienced life the way I do. For some reason, I indulged, sharing bits of my life and eventually adding him and mainly communicating with him on Twitter, the ONLY other social media he had. He offered me his phone number but I didn't have a phone at the time so I didn't get that. He claimed to be about 20 and his birthday was supposedly August 20th or maybe September 20th. He also claimed to be a psychology major in college, which (having taken a psychology class and still being stupid as shit) I now know means practically nothing.
We talked for awhile, often about my obsession with a girl id been bickering with for years, which he would enable and even went as far as to hunt down her old unlisted YouTube videos that she'd hidden from her channel when she found out I knew about them. In hindsight, no grown adult should be offering to do something like that.
At some point I think he asked me if he could write poetry about me. I don't specifically remember that question or my answer but I was a kid so I was probably like "idrc". Some weeks later he sent me basically a love poem. I found it weird and he reminded me that I said it was ok but that he would stop.
Right when we'd met he said his name was one thing. However over the course of our speaking terms I became increasingly paranoid in my personal life and decided to ask him again what his last name was. Lo and behold, his answer changed! I pointed out that last time he gave me a different last name and he said "oh that's my middle name".
He ghosted me a couple days later.
Having abandonment issues, this bothered me a lot. I continued to text his dead Twitter and quotev accounts for like 3 years and once the pandemic hit I eventually basically said "don't die from covid.. or do, idc" and then stopped finally.
His accounts remained up until what must've been the last year or so bc they are now gone but they were up relatively recently. I'm assuming he went through and deleted that shit.
Thinking back on it now, Im pretty sure he was trying to groom me. Unfortunately for him I was extremely uninterested and repulsed by anything sexual and would react badly to any form of "positive" relationship stimuli no matter how far he went to validate my feelings. But I still had dreams about him for years and thought about him a lot, mostly worried for his health, but now he could be a John doe in a river somewhere and I would never know or care.
The only evidence of this I have is a couple screenshots of our conversations.
It's a weird life.
This guy reached out one day and said he was interested in people like me and had never met anyone who experienced life the way I do. For some reason, I indulged, sharing bits of my life and eventually adding him and mainly communicating with him on Twitter, the ONLY other social media he had. He offered me his phone number but I didn't have a phone at the time so I didn't get that. He claimed to be about 20 and his birthday was supposedly August 20th or maybe September 20th. He also claimed to be a psychology major in college, which (having taken a psychology class and still being stupid as shit) I now know means practically nothing.
We talked for awhile, often about my obsession with a girl id been bickering with for years, which he would enable and even went as far as to hunt down her old unlisted YouTube videos that she'd hidden from her channel when she found out I knew about them. In hindsight, no grown adult should be offering to do something like that.
At some point I think he asked me if he could write poetry about me. I don't specifically remember that question or my answer but I was a kid so I was probably like "idrc". Some weeks later he sent me basically a love poem. I found it weird and he reminded me that I said it was ok but that he would stop.
Right when we'd met he said his name was one thing. However over the course of our speaking terms I became increasingly paranoid in my personal life and decided to ask him again what his last name was. Lo and behold, his answer changed! I pointed out that last time he gave me a different last name and he said "oh that's my middle name".
He ghosted me a couple days later.
Having abandonment issues, this bothered me a lot. I continued to text his dead Twitter and quotev accounts for like 3 years and once the pandemic hit I eventually basically said "don't die from covid.. or do, idc" and then stopped finally.
His accounts remained up until what must've been the last year or so bc they are now gone but they were up relatively recently. I'm assuming he went through and deleted that shit.
Thinking back on it now, Im pretty sure he was trying to groom me. Unfortunately for him I was extremely uninterested and repulsed by anything sexual and would react badly to any form of "positive" relationship stimuli no matter how far he went to validate my feelings. But I still had dreams about him for years and thought about him a lot, mostly worried for his health, but now he could be a John doe in a river somewhere and I would never know or care.
The only evidence of this I have is a couple screenshots of our conversations.
It's a weird life.
