Hi all, as you all know our beloved previous 1D member Liam Payne has passed away at the young age of 31.
This has really affected me in so many ways: I feel like I lost a best friend. One Direction was my childhood; I remember so many times I would take my 1D backpack to 1st grade and show it off. I remember this one time my mom gave me book fair money to buy a book. Instead, as soon as I got to the book fair, my intentions of buying a book suddenly faded. I saw a one Direction poster and got it in a split second. I got home that day and my mom was fairly angry with me. It was worth it.
Anyways, for years I've always wanted to go back and redo my childhood. Mainly because it was corrupted, and I was a sexually abused hypersexual young child who didn't get to live a normal life. I always wanted to go back to before I was abused. How happy I was. and this was during the time I was obsessed with One Direction. These memories are ones I wish I could go back in time and relive everything.
Hearing the death of Liam devastated me. Especially because the police is not ruling out a potential suicide. Either way, I'm struggling to cope with his death. It's so hard to know that fans won't get a reunion with everyone all together. I wonder why I'm so affected by someone's death that I didn't personally know, but I feel like I just answered my own question. He was a big part of my childhood, before I was abused. And even after, I still loved One Direction and used it to cope. Knowing he is gone and will never be seen talking, smiling, laughing again in my lifetime hurts. He was so young and I'm just so lucky to be born in the same lifetime as him. I hope he is resting peacefully and I hope that his death wasn't suicide. Thinking about this brings tears to my eyes. To know he was hurting. To know that so many people are hurting. I'm sorry to those who are hurting and know just because I don't know you, you're so important to me and I love you. Thanks for taking the time to listen...RIP Liam Payne
This has really affected me in so many ways: I feel like I lost a best friend. One Direction was my childhood; I remember so many times I would take my 1D backpack to 1st grade and show it off. I remember this one time my mom gave me book fair money to buy a book. Instead, as soon as I got to the book fair, my intentions of buying a book suddenly faded. I saw a one Direction poster and got it in a split second. I got home that day and my mom was fairly angry with me. It was worth it.
Anyways, for years I've always wanted to go back and redo my childhood. Mainly because it was corrupted, and I was a sexually abused hypersexual young child who didn't get to live a normal life. I always wanted to go back to before I was abused. How happy I was. and this was during the time I was obsessed with One Direction. These memories are ones I wish I could go back in time and relive everything.
Hearing the death of Liam devastated me. Especially because the police is not ruling out a potential suicide. Either way, I'm struggling to cope with his death. It's so hard to know that fans won't get a reunion with everyone all together. I wonder why I'm so affected by someone's death that I didn't personally know, but I feel like I just answered my own question. He was a big part of my childhood, before I was abused. And even after, I still loved One Direction and used it to cope. Knowing he is gone and will never be seen talking, smiling, laughing again in my lifetime hurts. He was so young and I'm just so lucky to be born in the same lifetime as him. I hope he is resting peacefully and I hope that his death wasn't suicide. Thinking about this brings tears to my eyes. To know he was hurting. To know that so many people are hurting. I'm sorry to those who are hurting and know just because I don't know you, you're so important to me and I love you. Thanks for taking the time to listen...RIP Liam Payne
