Appreciation

I just want my old life back, to be able to get through a day without it taking everything I have and still it's not always good enough.

I've tried so hard over the last 6 months but wonder if I'm enough for me or to life

I was not a bad mum and will always love him, more than he will ever know.

I really really need a mental break of unconscious and will strive to get one

Please appreciate those that you hold dearest and those whom you love.
Life can change in an instant leaving you crippled for years and years. My Grief is so self consuming as I cling on so hard to the wreckage of my life whilst being crushed by 6 foot waves of emotion.
Always struggling and trying to convince myself that I'm alright whilst wearing a mask of disguise.
Some days I can be OK but other days are more difficult.
I just want my old life back, to be able to get through a day without it taking everything I have and still it's not always good enough.
To have just 1 day without suicidal thoughts and believing that I can truly enjoy life again.
I've tried so hard over the last 6 months but wonder if I'm enough for me or to life
Having my son taken away was the worst day of my life. I was not a bad mum and will always love him, more than he will ever know. I can't bear this separation anymore, it's crushing my soul and has broken my heart.
I really really need a mental break of unconscious and will strive to get one
I'm out, even just temporary.

You're more than "good enough," for here & all of us, here! . . . : )


I hope you get the chance to show this to him when given the opportunity! ; ) & I bet you will!!! :^)


H'mm... like meditation? Or deep sleep? Hopefully, something you find will help, and not be too on the destructive side of nature. Or if it is, then that it doesn't take too much out of you, or have a toll on your overall health. . .

And thanks for the reminder on the subject/topic of the thread - in the beginning bit, anyway. . . For I feel, we all need or could use a reminder every once in awhile, as it is just so easy to take that which we already have in our lives that is good, and solid gold, for granted. Just because it has always been there, and so forth. So pleased to have that reminder & very helpful once again, so thank you @So so tired I & we, truly do appreciate you and all that you stand for. For as I said, you are more than good enough for us. And I'm sure quite a lot of others, out there in your daily life as well. So try & keep your head up, if you can! Realize it's easier said than done, given all that's been stated -- but just, there's always ... things in life aren't always black & white. There's great room for nuance, in all things. Whether of great or minor & small importance... Things are rarely all or none, in other words. Good or bad, etc. Peace~

Hugs @So so tired

I hope there's a way that you can have your son with you again soon.

Your son is waiting for you in heaven to hug you.. I hope these feelings pass..hugs🫂🫂

No, he is not in heaven, he is in care.
I do still class it as a loss bc I Bearley see him. I fight all the time to get him back but social services are b**

So there is still a chance to one day do that. . . : )

I always hope for that, probably me being nieve

I've tried so hard over the last 6 months but wonder if I'm enough for me or to life

It's hard to read this, but also I'm glad you are posting. I see you as a very good person who makes the tired old world a better place. Yet it is not your responsibility to continuously do so, which goes without saying. You've every right to take time out from hurting. It's not fair and I can't see how they justify preventing reunion for your child and yourself. For you to bear this accumulating stress is mind and body bending, and shouldn't be happening.
I hope it alright that I wrote with my feelings.

hugs @So so tired