I have been a member of this forum since my late middle school days in 2006, and at 33, I'm hanging in ruins, with the reaper traveling at full throttle because suicide is the only way out. After an argument with decades of manipulation and gaslighting from my mother, she has gaslight me again that her blood pressure was 192 to silence me, and all I see is my grave. ⚰️🪦
I hope my days of suffering can finally come to an end, and I'm laid to rest. I made it through bullying in high school but my fiancée died of the COVID plague in October 24th, 2021, exactly 11 years after my step-grandfather died of complications of a heart attack. I never thought I would return here, nearly two decades of suffering later, and I hope that is the last of it, as I'm laid to rest, with the reaper at full throttle with the bottle. I wanted to die of a heart attack when I was most depressed a few years ago, but anything that can lay me to rest is welcome. After all of this manipulation I just want peace, and peace that doesn't come from living.
I hope my days of suffering can finally come to an end, and I'm laid to rest. I made it through bullying in high school but my fiancée died of the COVID plague in October 24th, 2021, exactly 11 years after my step-grandfather died of complications of a heart attack. I never thought I would return here, nearly two decades of suffering later, and I hope that is the last of it, as I'm laid to rest, with the reaper at full throttle with the bottle. I wanted to die of a heart attack when I was most depressed a few years ago, but anything that can lay me to rest is welcome. After all of this manipulation I just want peace, and peace that doesn't come from living.
I'm wishing good things your way.