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I feel like giving up

jess♡

SF Supporter
#1
I have been struggling more than i could have struggled my entire life. I have been con thinking about whether i am better off dead or not, my mind can’t shake that feeling off and it wont stop.
I am constantly thinking how much of a worthless person i am and how much i am a disappointment to this world and, I just don’t see a future as such. I want to cry, i want to be happy but it isnt getting better. it’s getting worse. :(
My mind feels so shit and it’s so exhausting to live like this, it’s getting too much to handle it really is. i’ve tried reaching out to ’help’ and, they just fob you off like you’re a piece of shit. it’s. not. fair.

I want this pain to end, i really do but i can’t leave this world because i have’ something to live for’ even though i do not know what that is right now, it’s so hard. I cry every night every day because i am in so much pain and, it hurts to even breathe because it’s so emotionally painful to live like this. I just want to be better do better but, i do not think that will happen anytime soon, i just i don’t even know what im posting here but i am hurting so much i really am. :(

sorry.
 
#2
I feel much the same. It's hard. If dying were easier I certainly wouldn't be here any more. All the options for dying have such huge risks of just making life far worse. And asking for help doesn't fix things, all it does is provide temporary partial relief emotionally but doesn't fix the core root problems? All I can do is grounding exercises that make me appreciate what I have here, now, but the question I have is how long will I have these things for?
 

jess♡

SF Supporter
#3
I feel much the same. It's hard. If dying were easier I certainly wouldn't be here any more. All the options for dying have such huge risks of just making life far worse. And asking for help doesn't fix things, all it does is provide temporary partial relief emotionally but doesn't fix the core root problems? All I can do is grounding exercises that make me appreciate what I have here, now, but the question I have is how long will I have these things for?
Sorry to hear you’re going through the same as me, I am always here if you ever need to talk etc. You’re not alone. *hug
 

jess♡

SF Supporter
#4
Just been told to kill myself.. i feel fucking awful right now. So so much shit is going on in my life to then be told to kill myself. How fucking fair is that? I have tried to support the girl who has told me to go kill myself but, she doesn’t give a shit about my feelings, It is disgusting and i feel awful.
 
#5
Just been told to kill myself
That's really awful. I've heard of that happening before, and it's really the lowest and most loathsome thing someone can say.

Anyone who says that to someone is at best just lashing out with the most vicious thing they can think of. At worst, it's the malice of someone truly despicable.

You're a good person and the world needs you, even if you don't feel that way at the moment. Please stay safe.

Sending hugs if you would like hugs
 

Inastorm

SF Supporter
#6
Just been told to kill myself.. i feel fucking awful right now. So so much shit is going on in my life to then be told to kill myself. How fucking fair is that? I have tried to support the girl who has told me to go kill myself but, she doesn’t give a shit about my feelings, It is disgusting and i feel awful.
Totally out of order - just remember she is probably feeling very very low herself to say terrible things like that. I'm not suggesting you empathise with her but, no one is basically in their right mind to say something like that, it's very narcissistic thing to say and to do. Basically don't take it as a reflection on you as in some respects it's laughable that someone would stoop so low like that. Also distance yourself from her if you can, you don't want someone in your life like this.

Push through this @jess♡ I have full confidence in you that you can, it wont be easy but you seem like a nice person, I liked the motivation writing your posted a while back. I think it's key here to get a few people in your life who are healthy for you/ disregard people with are not.
 

1964dodge

Has a monkey as a friend
Safety & Support
SF Supporter
#7
I have been struggling more than i could have struggled my entire life. I have been con thinking about whether i am better off dead or not, my mind can’t shake that feeling off and it wont stop.
I am constantly thinking how much of a worthless person i am and how much i am a disappointment to this world and, I just don’t see a future as such. I want to cry, i want to be happy but it isnt getting better. it’s getting worse. :(
My mind feels so shit and it’s so exhausting to live like this, it’s getting too much to handle it really is. i’ve tried reaching out to ’help’ and, they just fob you off like you’re a piece of shit. it’s. not. fair.

I want this pain to end, i really do but i can’t leave this world because i have’ something to live for’ even though i do not know what that is right now, it’s so hard. I cry every night every day because i am in so much pain and, it hurts to even breathe because it’s so emotionally painful to live like this. I just want to be better do better but, i do not think that will happen anytime soon, i just i don’t even know what im posting here but i am hurting so much i really am. :(

sorry.
i am so sorry that you are going through this. you are still very young and have a lifetime to find your footing . you will suffer throughout your life sometimes just a tiny bit other times more pronounced but you should also have times of joy and accomplishments. your life will probably not be perfect but it can be a rewarding great life.

as far as which is best life or death let's explore it logically just like mr. spoc. if you die right now you end all pain in this world but you also wipe out any joy and love. if there is no afterlife then fade to black and you experience nothing, if there is an afterlife , even if god forgives you , you still miss out on the only chance at life.

as for me that is why i put up with the pain because this is my one and only time being alive

mike....*hug*console*shake
 

1964dodge

Has a monkey as a friend
Safety & Support
SF Supporter
#8
Just been told to kill myself.. i feel fucking awful right now. So so much shit is going on in my life to then be told to kill myself. How fucking fair is that? I have tried to support the girl who has told me to go kill myself but, she doesn’t give a shit about my feelings, It is disgusting and i feel awful.
that person is a piece of shit and please, please don't listen, you may want to cut her out of your life completely if she is going to be toxic. the smart thing to do is keep fighting to not just survive but strive to feel better.

mike....*hug*shake
 

KM76710

Kangaroo Manager
SF Pro
SF Supporter
#9
Just been told to kill myself.. i feel fucking awful right now. So so much shit is going on in my life to then be told to kill myself. How fucking fair is that? I have tried to support the girl who has told me to go kill myself but, she doesn’t give a shit about my feelings, It is disgusting and i feel awful.
I hope you will be able to disregard that person. She is not worthy your time or you dealing with her. She is showing her true self, leave her to it by herself is what I would do.
 

jess♡

SF Supporter
#11
That's really awful. I've heard of that happening before, and it's really the lowest and most loathsome thing someone can say.

Anyone who says that to someone is at best just lashing out with the most vicious thing they can think of. At worst, it's the malice of someone truly despicable.

You're a good person and the world needs you, even if you don't feel that way at the moment. Please stay safe.

Sending hugs if you would like hugs
Thankyou, @may71 thank you for replying to me it means a lot to me.
 

jess♡

SF Supporter
#12
Totally out of order - just remember she is probably feeling very very low herself to say terrible things like that. I'm not suggesting you empathise with her but, no one is basically in their right mind to say something like that, it's very narcissistic thing to say and to do. Basically don't take it as a reflection on you as in some respects it's laughable that someone would stoop so low like that. Also distance yourself from her if you can, you don't want someone in your life like this.

Push through this @jess♡ I have full confidence in you that you can, it wont be easy but you seem like a nice person, I liked the motivation writing your posted a while back. I think it's key here to get a few people in your life who are healthy for you/ disregard people with are not.
100%, i am distancing myself from. her if anything i dont have her on any social media anymore because of that. i just hope she leaves me alone now.

Thank you for replying to me it means a lot to me.
 

jess♡

SF Supporter
#13
i am so sorry that you are going through this. you are still very young and have a lifetime to find your footing . you will suffer throughout your life sometimes just a tiny bit other times more pronounced but you should also have times of joy and accomplishments. your life will probably not be perfect but it can be a rewarding great life.

as far as which is best life or death let's explore it logically just like mr. spoc. if you die right now you end all pain in this world but you also wipe out any joy and love. if there is no afterlife then fade to black and you experience nothing, if there is an afterlife , even if god forgives you , you still miss out on the only chance at life.

as for me that is why i put up with the pain because this is my one and only time being alive

mike....*hug*console*shake
So so true, thank you mike for replying to me. I am glad you’re still here fighting.
 

jess♡

SF Supporter
#14
that person is a piece of shit and please, please don't listen, you may want to cut her out of your life completely if she is going to be toxic. the smart thing to do is keep fighting to not just survive but strive to feel better.

mike....*hug*shake
Ive removed her from every social media platform i had her on i just hope she leaves me alone.

thank you again mike for replying to me.
 

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