Tragedies idk

I like and am attached to so many people. When I was little , that was enough. I now choose to be with people I share the same values with. Not all same , just few core same values. They are pretty basic to me but from the society I come from , I understand how they can be viewed so differently because they indeed are. I have three cousins I live with as in the same house. We used to play everyday when little and often when studies got in the way. Things happened with my life I won't get into and that sort of distanced us but we were still close. I don't hate them. I think I like them infact. Few months ago , their mom , my aunt said something about my clothing which I didn't like. I decided to just cut them off from then. I know it's not them and I don't like when people judge people by their parents because that's not just how it goes , I mean I don't believe it. You can be different from your parents. But yk , I think they will support their mom over me and yea I do think we have different values. So it saddens me and gives me pain when we cross paths. There are other relatives too like that. I can be honest with my former friends and I am when I end things , I am honest about reasons ( if they would want to know ). With relatives , I just don't trust them. If I tell them , they will make fun of me or invalidate or say I " overthink " or is influenced by West and social media and the list goes on.
I want to be honest with this eldest cousin. The thing is , I am not sure. I don't trust her either , she might tell my aunt ( if not herself then my aunt might force her to tell her ) and then again my aunt will talk about it , the whole house knows and I do not want my family to know about my values or anything about my life to be honest. I don't trust them , they are toxic , abusive. It's for my own safety. So , basically it sucks. I was a huge believer that love is enough. That's all we need , if I love you why can't I be with you ? Well , because we need more things along with love to work it out.
A part of me still believes or like to think , one day I will be honest. One day I will tell the reasons to all the people I have ghosted literally or metaphorically and maybe just maybe one day they will understand.

I'm sorry that there's something that has come between you and your cousins, and that the situation is so toxic.

From my experience I don't think you should cut the relation you have with your cousins right away.

Sometimes those who are very different from you are the ones who will help you out.

But if you feel uncomfortable with them, you shouldn't force a friendship with them.