twice have people i dont recognise said "i love you" to me. this is inexplicable and very very very very upsetting. because i do not typedentify as enneagram two. i do NOT want to present as someone desperate and needy to be loved romantically or sexually by someone else, that is the opposite of my identity. i want to look pale and skinny, messy hair, baggy clothes, somewhat dishevelled, more joy from activities than relationships.
transtypal dysphoria is when a person desperately longs to become an entirely different person. they may feel extremely envious of anyone that displays traits of their desired kind of person, try to dress act behave give off the vibes etc of their desired kind of person, and feel extreme distress whenever presenting as the opposite.
me personally, i long to be
skinny, pale skin, thick hair, daydreamer, athletic, gamer, artist, smart, awkward, doesn't reveal strong emotions, nonchalant, has hobbies other than the internet
every time i present as hysterical it hurts like hell
i really really really really really really desperately want surgery or some other procedures on my brain to reduce emotions reduce sensory input reduce appetite and hunger and induce dissociation
i hate the way i write
I WANT TO BE SOMEONE THAT IS MORE REMOVED FROM SENSORY REALITYIES
WROTE IN A WAY MORE NONCHALANT MINIMALISTIC KINDA WAY
i feel dysphoria not only about my gender but also about my brain in a non necessarily gendered way. likek the way i think the way i process reality the way i deal with emotions the way i try to cope with pain etc the way my voice sounds the way i dress is completely mis aligned with my sense of identity and its unbearable
transtypal dysphoria is when a person desperately longs to become an entirely different person. they may feel extremely envious of anyone that displays traits of their desired kind of person, try to dress act behave give off the vibes etc of their desired kind of person, and feel extreme distress whenever presenting as the opposite.
me personally, i long to be
skinny, pale skin, thick hair, daydreamer, athletic, gamer, artist, smart, awkward, doesn't reveal strong emotions, nonchalant, has hobbies other than the internet
every time i present as hysterical it hurts like hell
i really really really really really really desperately want surgery or some other procedures on my brain to reduce emotions reduce sensory input reduce appetite and hunger and induce dissociation
i hate the way i write
I WANT TO BE SOMEONE THAT IS MORE REMOVED FROM SENSORY REALITYIES
WROTE IN A WAY MORE NONCHALANT MINIMALISTIC KINDA WAY
i feel dysphoria not only about my gender but also about my brain in a non necessarily gendered way. likek the way i think the way i process reality the way i deal with emotions the way i try to cope with pain etc the way my voice sounds the way i dress is completely mis aligned with my sense of identity and its unbearable