Venting I want to start a transtypal community

i was already triggered and nervous. i began crying and my plans to go shopping were quickly ruined because kids gridlocked me on a bus and asked me if i were okay repeatedly with an annoying tone of voice and then misgendered me and told me they recognised me.

I am transtypal. Please get my typenouns right.

I identify as inexpressive, chill, apathetic, nonchalant, unreactive, stoic, dreamy, detached, absent-minded, inattentive, slow to react, silly, playful

it means everything to me

DONT ever tell me to calm down, no matter how agitated i appear, no matter what. Because its an insult to my typedentity.
telling a rebellious-identifying person how well-behaved they are will hurt their feelings as much as misgendering a transgender person would

i find it triggering how i am the only person that cries in public. or how i notice more about my surroundings than most people, it gives me brain dysphoria.
impulse buying unnecessary items, especially food (i am anorexic) triggers brain dysphoria.

i hate how alone i feel as a transtypal person. i am so upset by it being dismissed as dramatic, or faked for attention seeking, ESPECIALLY as someone that particularly typedentifies as emotionless and independently-minded. i wish i could start a community for transtypal people to relate to each other, but sadly I am the only transtypal person. transtypal is when a person's cognition, behaviour and personality is at odds with their sense of identity, leading to distress.

strangers trying to help me because i am crying does not help. firstly they as a person might trigger my brain dysphoria by resembling my ideal self for any reason at all. secondly the kind of advice they may give is likely way too vague.

it means the world to me

to give off the impression of a skinny, nonchalant, baggy clothes, messy hair, detached and somewhat absent minded young white man.

every time i appear visibly distressed, react too eagerly, behave impatiently or impulsively, say something irrational, or get misgendered i wwant to die

having heavy shopping bags and overpacking also gives me brain dysphoria

it hurts so much when everyone i see everywhere (well by "everyone" i mean the more brain envy inducing ppl) has barely anything on them

as a transtypal person, everything i like - be it music, fashion, food, weather, colours, whatever - is analogous to my typedentity. all of the data i hate is associated with traits i find dysphoric to have or display.